I Love You

When you go to sleep
When you dream through the night
When you try to comprehend
The feelings you hold inside

When you wake up
When you open your eyes
When you turn your head
When you blink in surprise

I will always watch over you
I will always love you
I will always care for you
I will always guard you against the terror of the night

When you walk the road
When you're driving your car
When walking through
The blinking lamplight in the dark

When you breathe in
When your hearts beats again and again
When you try to inhale
Will it be me you breathe in?

I am only the air that surrounds you
I am only the night that protects you
I am only the sunlight that feeds into you
I am only the love that is looking for you

I love you

What's Meant To Be Will Be

What thoughts in my head linger
About future or past
What things about the present
That I don't understand

It's just a matter of where and how
The power will ever be
The time it chooses
And the place, at it's please

The whimper of a child
The smile of a lady
The moaning of a man
In his sixties, 'why me?'

The simple pleasures that we take for granted
The circumstances in which they take us
We would love control
But we don't
The life we live
Is not ours – that's what we forgot

What's meant to be will be
For time and day
What's meant to be will be
This feeling I try to understand – everyday

What Do You Think?

I find myself
Thinking of you from time to time
Flash back memory
Wish I could erase it so I could get on with my life

Everytime I see a woman
A couple
Or someone like you

I am sent back in time
Thinking of the good and the bad
And it's all because of you

I have burned your letters
Your Valentine's card
Erased your photos from my PC
I no longer have in possession anything that reminds me of that 'part'

I was supposed to marry you
You were supposed to come back
Why the hell did you lead me?
Why couldn't you just tell me from the start?

I'm a fool for having fallen for you
I'm a fool now for still thinking of you

It didn't seem logical to try to commit suicide twice in a row
Now the thoughts of that idea still come and go

What do you think?

Tomorrow

Tomorrow, when the Sun comes up in the sky
Will you be able to wake up and not cry?
To the sound of the birds singing your name in the sky
Deliver her to me, dear God, please, before I die

Tomorrow, when the Moon rests on the sea
And when you go to sleep
Will you dream of me?
I wish you could, so you could see how much I am suffering, without you here next to me

Tomorrow, when you pass me by on the sidewalk
Will you turn, smile, and go
Or will you pay no attention to a stranger you have never known
I wonder if you think of me

Tomorrow, when I would be admitted into the bed
When all my tears have been shed
When all my hopes and fears have gone over into the land of the dead
Do you think by that time you would know me enough to visit me?

Tomorrow lies in my heart
A twinkle, a spark, a love-rose in the pot
I will always think of you
But will you ever think of me?
I will always have you in my heart
But will you deny me the passion to be in your life?
I will always think of the day when we would pass by each other, smile at each other, perhaps even sit down and talk to each other
But would you, ever think, of the same of me?

Tomorrow lies in my heart
The past is forgotten, it’s in the dark
The present I hold in my hands
The hope of meeting you, and to love you, and that you would understand

This is the truth, which I hold
The life within me

The Minute I See You

For the beauty of life
For the beauty in you
For some sense of romance
And for the truth

I can’t sit around here
Just doing nothing
Just acting like some statue
Just living in the blues

One day I’ll be living with you
Somewhere, in your heart, you will have saved me from my solitude

‘Til then, I’m still looking for you
My white rose – this rain, blue

I’d give up my sadness
The minute I see you

The Change Within

The parents die
Children laugh and play
This is the life we live
And, at times, regret to this very day

Pandora's box opened
Chaos all over
I miss the greens
The cold weather and clover

Forgiven sins of our might
Man's greatest tragedy is not his body but his mind

The change within
The laughter we miss
The tears we cry
On our butter-fingered bliss

'Read a novel', 'write a poem', 'do something productive'
Is it me or are you a two-faced liar trying to send a false message?

But in the end
The tears I'll be crying will come from my heart
Because no one listens
To a rational person, or his mind, because, to them, he's dead – drained of blood

The Blind Man

A blind man walks in the street
A stick in his hand from hand to heel
Holds out his hand
Waving it for people to understand
That he needs their sympathy
Not money
Their heart
And not a few Dollars

A blind man walks in the street
Late at night
Tries to find a place
To rest his mind

He has nowhere to go
No chest to be protected by
No love to be given
No smile, even if he could see with his own two eyes

This blind man
Is now dead
But his soul still roams the streets
You can still hear him ask
'Wonderous world, who will love, protect, and not run from the face at hand?'
Do you hear him...?

The Angel That I Will Never See

Birds fly in the air
Fish in the sea
But an Angel like her
I will never meet

Is she a ribbon?
Is she the Blue sea?
Is she the wonder?
That will enlighten me to ease?

An Angel walks upon the Earth
Just for me
It’s the life
That I live in; that I breathe

Smile for me
Will you please?
I like to see you smile
It hurts me to see you sad, or unhappy

Would you?
Or would you not be the only one?

Could you be…
The only one

Take Me

Take my heart

Take my heart
And swift me away
Into the land of freedom
Come what may

Take my soul
Put me in your pocket
Dance me around
Like the music in your dreams

Take my hand
Take me all
Take my life, won't you
Without you - I would surely fall

Take me
Take me
Take me

Take me to the land of freedom
Where you heart beats
Where I can feel your passion
Where I can fulfill your every need

Take me to where you want to go
Take me there and I will always follow
Take me and never let go of my hand
Take me, don't lie to me, because the moment you do that - the bond between us, will be stroked upon, by the Angel of death

Take me to where you smile and not weep
Take me to where you plow your dreams
Take me to the land of fairytales and not sorrow
Take me but never let me go

Take ME

S U P E R M A N

I'm no superman
I'm a human being
I try to struggle in this life
I try to be me

I'm always told to alive
To stay free
To live the time
But I can't – see?

I have my problems
I have a way of thinking
I have a way in life
I try to look danger in the eye, without blinking

But I'm no superman
Although I try to be
People call me Mr. Pessimistic
But that's just me

I'm no superman
Although I try to be
I try to live to everyone's expectations
But it's as if the nations have called for the beheading of me

I try to be
Who I'm not
I try to see
But I end up wrong

I'm not complaining
I'm telling a story
A story of me
A man with no vision, no future – I'm sorry

If you want a superman
You've come to the wrong man
I'm not that kind of a person
Although I try to be that kind of a man

I could go on like this
Telling you all this crap
But honestly, truly
Why would you want to understand?

My problems are mine
Mine to keep
Mine to drown in
My eyes, they weep

Even if I found a woman, just for me
Would she understand me?
Would she stay with me?
Would she – in time – betray me?

The heavens have once clashed upon my head
And destroyed my every nerve
They told my heart to beat
And to call it 'love'

But even then
I couldn't stand it
I tried to hold it within
But now my mind has banned it

Now that life for me
Is in a late age
It's time for me
To move on again

Maybe I'll stumble once again
Upon another beautiful woman who will understand
That in her eyes
I'll always try to be… a superman

Rose Between The Thorns

I wish I could talk to you more and more
To find out what you are thinking of and to spread you with warmth

I cannot tell a lie
How much I like you
This is my path of life
Would you lie to me, too?

The truth is in the eyes
The truth is in the heart
Burdens touch heart and soul
The never ending search for a rose between the thorns

Personally Speaking

Beyond the flower
The bed of the sea
The beating heart
That beats within me

I wish I could sleep
All I ever think of is you
I wish I could just dream
Of your image, of your love that would shine through

I cannot sleep the night
When you are not here
I cannot think in the daylight
I cannot eat, nor drink, not even smile a happy face

I wish you were here
Even though you broke my heart
Three years ago

I wish I could see you here
Hold you, or die in your arms
But it seems this thought will never let go

You're not the night to me anymore
You're not the sunshine that would shine on my face
You're more like a drug that I need to get off
You're the blistering memory that grinds in my head and makes it ache

Every kiss we ever had
Was a fake
Those two Valentine's we had
All you had wanted was your own way

Now I am here
All alone
Because of you

I am wondering
Fathoming
Pondering, that should I see you, should I shoot you or stab you, or strangle you 'til you choke out last breath in you?

Its too bad I can't post your pic
It would have been wonderful to show the world how beautiful THORNS can be
But I will resist
The time will come when I will find another love for me

Passion into dust
Fire into ash
This memory will never go
And no one will ever understand

HAPPY VALENTINE

My Reality

Life is life
A question left in the heart
Let the mind wonder about it
Let it try to break the ice, for a start

Apples on trees
Too red, too green
My reality is fixed
Upon one dream

One day
You'll pull through the fog
Like a rainbow in the rain

One day
I'll see
Your face

Would you be everything I wanted you to be?
Who knows?
Would you be the way I dreamed about you?
I don't think so

My heart
Is a flying bird
I am tired
I want to get a girl

This poem is intended for those who understand
Those who don't can just go away instead of trying to comprehend

My idea of love
Is first attraction
Develop a friendship
And you have mental satisfaction

Other things
Will come my way
How soon?
I don't know really when, to say

God, I miss being in love

Like A Wildchild

Like a wildchild in the summer haze
Smile upon me and embrace
Your laughter will turn my sadness into happiness and everyone will smile catch it through a phase

Second tulip in the row
The rose next to it will never grow
Unless you smile and let it go
Tomorrow is another day don't let your pain ever show

Rain will come one day
And black clouds will fill up the sky to make more rain
You'll stand outside and get soaked wet - but who cares anyway?

One day you'll go back on these memories one day
And say to yourself, I wish I could do these things again someday
But unfortunately God has taken it all away
Why? You ask? I wouldn't know. And right now, I wouldn't care anyway

But I will say this:
A smile is a smile is a kiss
Gentle and light on my cheek on my lips
A warm hug, an I LOVE YOU
I cherish the life that I will always have with you

My heart is yours
The scent of love is contagious when it’s your eyes I look into
Sun goes down, the Moon arises
But never will there ever be time without you with surprises

Kiss Me Before You Leave

Kiss me before you leave
Rub your hand in my hair
Wash away the gloom in that corner, that glare
Hum to me as if I were a child
Sing to me as if I were to die

Kiss me before I go to sleep
Read to me the story of Romeo and Juliet
Where lovers met because of their desire and created their own fate
Love me there and then
Where happiness is never-ending

Wisk me away with your hands
The softness you hold
The warm heart, the beautiful features, of oh so many, into one mix of you, they mould

Kiss me before I go sleep
Don't deny me of this passion, the sweetest of dreams

Just A Dream, A Wish

It was dark

I could only make out an image of what could have been a figure

I saw the light that it was leading me to
I saw the face behind it, too
I saw your eyes and I was glued
I saw you and I knew that this must be a dream, because I haven't met you

I heard your voice and it was soft
I heard your voice as if a whisper
I heard your voice and I called it love, too soon to hinder
I heard you and I said to myself 'let me not wake up from my dream - ever'

I felt your hand on my face
I felt the warmth of love, which, I wish to embrace
I felt your smile through your hand as it passed on the summer love with all its grace
I felt you and I wished to God that I could feel it all over again

I woke up, suddenly, in my bed
A tear in my eye, a frown on my face, not a smile
I was in hospital tied up with many wires
Blood, agony, and a restless fever in my eyes
I only wish you were here to ease my suffering tonight

Let this Valentine's be new to me
Let the agony be gone and set me free
Let the wind fill me with the strength of your love beneath my feet
Let me stand so I can call out your name, let me see your face again, let me once again feel the love that I am deprived of, please

I love you - whoever you are
I wish you a happy Valentine's and much happiness - where-ever you are

Isn't This What Your Heart Wanted All Along?

Isn't this what your heart wanted?
Isn't this what you wanted all along?
Isn't this the type of Devil you really are?
The one, who, wrecks hearts and homes?

Aren’t you the type to break a man's heart?
And send his tears through the tap?
Aren't you the type to distinguish that spark?
To have it your own way? To make him look like a baby without the decency of giving him the opportunity to understand?

Kill the messenger
Kill the hope
Kill the undying need
Of love in this soul

Kill me
Kill my heart
Kill my hope for a white flower
For a light in the dark

Hang me from a tower
For everyone to see
What the hope of finding love
Has done to me

Search my veins
Search my head
Search my hands
All you'll find are traces of a hope that is dead

Burn me
Burn me
Burn me and this lighting desire

Shoot me
I no longer want to live
With this loneliness that I live everyday, which I silently cry out

May God take my soul
Before I do it myself
May God forgive me
For thinking like this

Happy Valentine's

Is it right for me to see your smile
And not be blessed by it?
Is it right for me to see you pass by there
In the most beautiful form, and not complement it?

Is it right that you should walk on and not know that I am there for you?
Is it right that I would see a red rose and could not give it to you?

Would it be right that you are somewhere so far
That I don't know where you are
That I cannot feel your compassion for the passionate person you are
And still live on with my life as it is?

Is it right that you love someone and you don't know who
That everyday passes by and you gain loneliness and solitude
And pass everyday as if there will be something else new
To happen, like the sight of having to see you?

Is it fair - ever - that you should pass out on the chance
That you should try to flirt with a woman in order to understand
Whether you're a pig, an ass, or purely gentleman

That she would love you for you are
Not because of your appearance and how skinny you are
Or because of the way you hum to every song
And how annoying it is not to get the attention you need while she is on the phone

My heart holds the love we need
My life is a root, water it with love - please?

In The Depths of My Soul

In the depths of my soul
In the relics of my goal
I know not what I should do

I know only that I must get up everytime I fall
I know that everytime my heart breaks that I must laugh not cry
I know that everytime I hold pain in my heart that I would crack and with that, my life would be gone

Life for me is a matter of chances
Like my dreams just a matter of glimpse
Glimpses of my past
Glimpses of my future
And the life I live in the present

Turn out to be my present
Turn out to help me in my future
Kill my past and let me live on

A flower will always be a flower
The weather will always change but I will endower
Sunshine will come out one day and I will laugh like a baby
When I see you, with that smile for me, which you won’t deny me

When?

As the sun dawns over the mountains
Beyond my window
My eyes fight
To open up in front of the screen

I think of my life
I think of the moments that when
My life used to have
A meaning

I turn and gaze
I smile and smile again
I look at my mobile phone
I tip sip off a 7up can and not COKE
And I remind myself it'll all be over soon

When will I see you?
When will stop being alone?
When will the nights stop being so lonesome?
When will phone bills go through the roof once more?
When will I see you?
When will I turn away?
When will the thoughts that I have just turn away?

I have a TV
I have a digital receiver
I have a PC
A hard drive and a printer
I have two game consoles that I don't use
It's the same with my heart and my mind, technically, if only you knew

I have a mind
A wonderous mind
A hand-watch, actually five
What good is time if I can't have you in my life?

I have everything
And nothing
I have the world at my fingertips
But no one to share it with

This must be the reason that God made Eve for Adam
They call me Ghosty, you must be the Phantom

When will I see you?
When will you come my way?
When will you make me stop asking so many questions?
When will you just kiss me and say "it's ok"?

When?
When?
When?

I Would

I would love to see a smile
Just for me
A flirt, a wink
Or maybe, a beautiful woman, calling out for me

I would gladly be knocked out by a guy
If it was his sister, I was flirting
For he has no idea
That it is her soul, which I have been searching

I would love to wake up in a hospital bed
All bruised up, breathless and almost paralyzed
If it meant to
That I would be waking up to her eyes

I would love to walk with you side by side
Eye to eye
Hand in hand

Or if you want
A glass of ice cold Coke
A candle in a darkened room, and two straws – just you and me

All I am trying to say
Is that whatever I do
I would
Love to do it with you

From Woman To Man

A woman
Is a woman
Is a Goddess by my measurements

A man
Is just a man
To her heart and the following revelations

I would like to understand
The how and whys
And then go on to know
That it is you who is resembled all over the sky

Shattered, my heart, will be
From remembering the loss of you, for me
At the mere mention of your name, I cry, I weep
And when I am asked 'Do you still love her?' I hold my breath, silently

Turn the hold that is within my heart
The bridge which I crossed, over the lake, at the park
The love I no longer hold, the emptiness in which my feelings starve
No moonlight, no sunshine, no angle, no hand, no spark

This is a moment I am asked to overcome
This is a time, whereby I am told to walk through and not to run from
Be it in the rain or the blazing sun
I would never forget that 'one'

Just Another Beating Heart

Another flower gone into hiding from the winter breeze
Another sunset gone into the mellow tides underneath my feet

Another feeling of sadness sinking into my depressed soul
Another question in my head; “Where has it all gone?”

You wish the time you have at your hands
Was driven away
By long walks, short calls
Meeting on a date

But you’re all alone
With no one to call your own
No roses, no happy birthdays
No public tea breaks at a cafe

Some call it a longing for romance
But then again: what is romance?

A walk in the park?
Or perhaps on the beach?
My hand in your hand?
Or lovers eyes at gaze across the street?

Put your hand on your beating heart
Tell me what it says
‘Call them’
‘Call them today’

Attraction

As the darkness looms over the sea
As the rhythm beats in my heart, in my soul, as I sleep
I dream of you, dream of me, and dream of us being happy

As the day passes by
As the sun stands-by in the sky
I think of you, I think of me, I think of us, hand-in-hand walking on the beach

Do I do this to torture myself?
Do we live alone in this universe?

Does my heart beat for no one at all?
Are you a ghost, just as I, unknown to the world?

Sunburn in my soul
The thought of meeting you withers in my mind
Tell a story to the child
This is attraction, love, at first sight

Beyond The Questions of The Mind

In a time of death
We all feel sorrow
Where there is no hope
When we feel there’s no tomorrow

In a life we live
Where time passes by
In a relevance to the mind
And the thoughts that drive us nuts by night

Deliver the frustration to the morning
Where we reach the sunrise with a yawning
When we live to grow old and ask why
Why ever this life? Why for God sakes, why?

Why move on to the next day?
Why lose hope and regain it again?
Why go to sleep and dream?
Why live your life when it is not to your please?

Beyond the night
Beyond the stars
Beyond the living soul
Of which our body will part

Beyond the clouds
Beyond the air
Beyond the breath
And the scent of a woman so near yet so far
Beyond the headache of driving your thoughts into a minded brick wall
Beyond the trash, beyond the corruption of the soul
Beyond the concept, beyond our goal

A white flower
Will only bloom for so long
And it will only rain for such a short while
And you’ll only live for a little over 70 years and die
And by the time you’re dead, you’ll think either ‘I’ve done what I’m supposed to have done’ or ‘Why?’

But will you confront yourself with the woman in your life?
Will you find the true heart by the time you are left high and dry?

Questions – more of which controls not the body, but the mind

Wedding Anniversary

Today I saw two pigeons cross their beaks
I remembered you
I saw the clouds in shapes of hearts
And it reminded me of you

You could be here
You could be there
You could be anywhere
But you would be in my heart

I hope that this day, you would cherish
The love I hold for you is plenty
Wishing you endless happiness
On your wedding anniversary

Wild Thing

I'm feeling wild
I'm feeling free
I feel like a child
Set amongst the greens

Come out the sun
Laugh with me
Rivers bursting with laughter
Chase with me my dreams

Under the moon
Under the stars
Under the wild oceans
Of the clouds

Under this skin
Under this brain
Under this heart
Is me, happily insane

I'm feeling wild
I'm feeling free
I feel like a child
Set amongst the greens

I only wish I could give this feeling to you
I only wish I could pass it on to you
But I'm sure
That this feeling of happiness is just as contagious to me as it will be to you

I'm feeling wild
I'm feeling free
I feel like a child
Set amongst the greens

And this is me

You'll See Me

You'll see me walking on a lonely shore
You'll see me walking along under the lights of a lonely street
You'll see me crying an innocent tear because I'm alone
You'll see me; you'll think you're no use for me

What do I say?
What do I do?
What am I to achieve?
If I don't have you?

Cinema's no good
Beaches are no fun
The ride in the car without you
Makes me feel more bored

Who wants sunsets?
Who wants sandy beaches?
Who wants a chocolate cake?
Who wants the rain?
Who wants a night in the winter air?
All I ever wanted is to have you

I know these are just words
And they'll never reach you no matter how much I try
But these are my wishes, my dreams
Why? Because you are my life

You Could Be Here

You could be here
Right in front of me
Or walking down that lonely street

Should I be missing you
Or anticipating your arrival
I don't know where to begin, really

You could have been the girl driving behind me
Or another beautiful one smiling and flirting at me
Really I wouldn't know, but I am in desperate need of thee
Would I be a clown? Or really serious? I really wouldn't know, but for you, I would be anything

If I couldn't laugh, I would cry. If I couldn't live, I would die
If for you, I could stand the test of time
To be more patient towards you To love you
To understand you To respect you
And not to underestimate you

Thinking of you, all the time
This is how I think of you - line after line...

Wonderous World

I wonder what you’re wearing today
I wonder what flower you look like today
I wonder how your pearly eyes twinkle and sway
I wonder how you’ve styled your hair today
I wonder whom you’ve met, and what, to them, you say
I wonder if it is, ever, about us, you think, anytime, any day
I wonder if you ever think about getting together, for tea, or breakfast, one day
I wonder if you’ll love me, when we meet, all along the way
I wonder if I’ll ever find you, ever – one time, one day

Where The Moon Is - The Sun Is Always There

There is no path set for you and for me.
It seems so sad, but what can we do? This is the way it will always be.

I fear the future, I am scared.
That I will not find you – a thought of which I cannot dare.
For where the moon is, the sun is always there.

A simple tear – everyday.
Fate? Let it be, come what may.
Sunrays in my eyes, the beauty that will come one to me and say:
Here I am; the truth; you have given, and now you take.

Trees are trees.
Dreams are dreams.
Clouds are clouds.
Seas are seas.
But are you just a fantasy...?

When You See Me

When you see me
Don't make a modest smile
Don't wink
Don't tease me
Because I don't want to be hypnotized by your eyes
Inspelled by the beauty in your face
And the remarkleableness and complexity in which God has created your grace

When you see me
Don't take pity on me
The hunted cavalier
'Drive by, do, or dare'
Someone as beautiful as you, definitely has someone in mind
Or maybe somebody is already in line
Love lasts for all your years - would you, or someone such as you - be there in time?
I'd rather not live another lie

When you see me
Just pass by
Make it look as though you never even noticed me
'I'd rather eat a day's old pair of socks and die!'
Walk on by
Wonderous you
Whom you make me black and blue
Whom I never cease to exist in front of you
Brown eyes, true love never dies
For this is the way that it is meant to be

Wax Fruit

Love don't hate me
Don't make me cry out in the dark my pleads
I'd rather have myself dying
Than crying for your needs

Love don't clutch at my soul
As you are right now
My has no goal
Because I have convinced myself that it is you I should be surround

What good is the table?
If the food is all wax?
What good is life?
Without you in it?
What good is your heart?
If there's no one to understand?

They Told Me To Shut Up

They told me to shut up
They told me not to say a word
They told me it would be over
It would be over very soon

The darkness in this hall
The room they put me in
The window and the bars
The paleness on my skin

Tears down my cheek
I closed my eyes
I wondered if this was all a dream
I wish I could wake up from this fright

A hand on my arm woke me up
I stared into the darkness and two eyes
Both were sad
Both were gonna cry out like a child

My mother held me close
Told me it was gonna be alright
Told me that there should be nothing I should be afraid of
That she would be there for all my time

The Starbucks Moment

Vivid moments of pleasure
Taste the delicacies and feel the delight
Starbucks is the only place where you can
Taste the true blend of coffee; morning, noon, or night

Come in, sit down, have a chat
Taste our Frappuchino, Coffee Latte’s, or tea
Enjoy our friendly mellow atmosphere and staff
Or just listen to our selection of jazz and R’N’ B

One way or another, you’ll find out that Starbucks is different
Live your life easily and come in and enjoy the ‘Starbucks moment’

Rythem of The Night

Rythem of the night
Be silent, be still
I have long favored the winter air
The breeze it is with filled
Life is complicated
My mind is obstructed
By the many problems with which it is surrounded
Lifeline of time
Beauty of the night
The feeling of not being able to make it
I breathe you in
I live within you
Rythem of the night
Be still, be true

Smile

Smile into my eyes
Smile away the blues
Smile away the sighs
The way I remember you

Smile into my heart
The way it used to be
Smile again into my life
Don't let me drown in these tears

You are so deeply missed in my heart
In my mind, I hold your spark
'Tis to this day, that I possess your love
A never-ending tale, of two lovers, in a park

Life Is A Flower

When you are weary
When you think the end is near
Life grows on
Life gives plenty to change

Riding down the tunnel
A black window, blue window too
You would see my marks
And probably hers, too

Dive into the clouds
Slip through like air
Its no wonder
You're still here

Petal by petal
Piece by piece
Think of life as a flower
Nourish it, won't you please?

Dear God

DEAR GOD,

I ASK THAT YOU GUIDE MY SOUL
OUT OF THIS WHOLE

I ASK THAT YOU FORGIVE ME
HELP ME REDEEM MY MISTAKES
GUIDE ME TOWARDS THE LIGHT
SO I CAN FEEL YOUR HEAVENLY GRACE

DEAR GOD

I ASK THAT YOU FORGIVE MY PAST MISTAKES
I ASK THAT YOU HELP ME STAND UP TO WHAT I SHOULD FACE

I ASK THAT YOU HELP ME GET BACK MY HEART AND SOUL
THE VERY THINGS THAT I’VE LOST BECAUSE I TOOK THE WRONG ROAD

DEAR GOD

I ASK THAT YOU OPEN YOUR DOORS TO ME
AND THAT YOU HELP ME SHATTER MY PROBLEMS TO SMITHEREENS

DEAR GOD

I KNOW I COULD WRITE A MILLION WORDS TO YOU
AND EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM WOULD BE TRUE

MY HEART IS SHATTERED INTO A MILLION PIECES
BECAUSE OF MY SINS
I DON’T KNOW WHETHER I WILL GO TO HELL
OR TO HEAVEN

EMPIRE UPON EMPIRE
WORLD UPON WORLD
I KNOW IT IS UP TO YOU

DOWN FROM HEAVEN
UPWARDS FROM HELL
I ASK THAT YOU HELP ME ON THIS EARTH, TO HELP ME BECOME TRUE TO MYSELF, TRUE TO YOU

DEAR GOD

I KNOW THIS IS JUST A WRITTEN PRAYER
AND I DON’T KNOW WHETHER IT WOULD COUNT OR NOT IN YOUR BOOK
BUT I HOPE YOU WILL ANSWER THIS PRAYER
FOR I KNOW YOU ARE MERCIFUL, LOVING TO YOUR SUBJECTS – ALWAYS WANTING FOR THEM WHAT IS GOOD

AMEN

Call Me Up And Make Me Smile

Call me up to say hi.
Call me up to ask me how I am and why.
Call me up just to say that you miss me and not need me.
But don’t call me up to say ‘Bye’.

If I can’t listen to your sweet voice then at least let me see your eyes.
Where passion lives without a lie.
Where the moon and the sun lie.
And where beauty is never denied.

There is no vision without you by my side.
Life, without you, is just a lie.

To know your beauty, I want to understand your smile.
Where dimples come up, and make your eyes twinkle in the light.
Call me up – please, and make me smile

Angelica

She wore a blue ribbon on her hair
It would fluff around when she would dance through the air

She danced like a baby
Being happy and all
She was full of it
God! I loved her smile. I loved her all.

Written with the passion of love
And inspired by your beauty
This the truth
This is a true love story

She fell from Heaven because she was meant for me
I felt inspelled by everything on her; from eye to knee
You would have too, believe you and me
Angelica was her name, and angelic in her nature, she was, truly

Now she's gone
Don't know where
This is my story
Of my life's only care

Angelica, if you read this - I love you so
This is all I ever wanted you to know

You Have Left Me

You have left me
To this cruel world
To live alone
Like a caveman hiding from a hunter in the cold

You have put my love
On trial
The way you shut me out
The truth that you deny

Two years
Was nothing to you
The things we have done and seen
Now because of you, I am truly blue

Too blue
To see the world
In an optimistic eye

Too blue
To taste the true taste
Of life

Why have you thrown away my heart?
The lies that you told me I hold on to and cry at every night

Sometimes I wish
That you had killed me
Instead of having leaving me like this

Why you had to go
And do what you did
It’s a curse, not bliss

I should be dead
Not alive
How I dreamed of being in your arms
Oh so many times

Why?
Why?
Why?

Why are you so wicked?
Why all the lies?
Why tearing up my heart?

Now I am alone
Now I die slowly
Now the world can collapse on me
And I wouldn’t care

This birthday will really be different
Now that you are gone
Maybe I can commit suicide with a free mind
Because I have lost my soul

Wonder

My mind is wondering about you
Would you make me a happy man, or more blue?

I don’t why
I am taking it this way
I haven’t talked to you, or heard from you
Or even seen your face

Maybe I am
Blowing it out of proportion
But if I am
Then why all this sudden happiness and loving notion?

I have only seen your picture
And already I am obsessed
Perhaps I am acting childlike
Perhaps it is a test

A test to see
If I am worthy of such a thing or not
To try to believe
That life can make you make happy and not

True to myself
I try to be
Wonderous questions
Always seem to swim in my sea

If I am not what you want
Take it easy on me
For I have been slaughtered a thousand times
By women, who have kept me on my toes and turned out to be thieves

I do hope
I do wish
I don’t know
Could someone send out a sign, please?

All I want
Is someone to love
Someone to care for me
Who will not betray my trust

Will that day ever come?
I am not sure
It’s like the weather that we always have on the outside
You never can predict what’s going to happen in the future

White flower
Silver petals
Spark in my heart
Dying of this riddle

Torn Souls

Ghost at my path
Things I may never come to comprehend

The beggar at the streets
The children’s tears
How much more will we be silent?

Defenders of the faith
We are ones who know of the pain
Dare you, to mute yourself, against the children’s crying?

These pictures
We see
The motions
We seek

I was born free
I will live free
I will die a free soul

To those who think they are weak
To anyone who thinks they are not of need
How do you face this call?

The call of the innocent
Who howl out of pain
Who’s skin, soul, lifetime’s memories
Have been torn away

We sit in our homes
Silent tears
When will we ever overcome
These silly, stupid, fears?

I see myself
Among fighters
Thrashing away
At those who attempt to steal my lifetime’s possessions

Rebel soul
Nothing less, nothing more

The secret of life
Is to live each day at a time

Plan ahead
You may
But don’t be surprised
If one day, your plans are changed

The heart
Can only belong to one
Take your time
To find that ‘one’

Don’t cry at my words
Do something for our world

It’s never too lateTo stop the pain

There Is No Reason To Smile

There is no reason to smile
Anymore
There is no life
No spring in my bottom
No galore

Life is life
As atrocious as it may be
The things I used to love and like
Have all gone. Now, it's just me

I might as well
Just hang off my head
What good is life
When you live as if you are dead?

Negligence to soul
To me
To my life
The things I need

You say
It is just a phase
I say
It is a lot of pain

Give me morphine, anytime
I don't wanna live this kind of life

The Truth

Loneliness grasps at my heart
Digging deeper into my emotions making me cry out in the dark

Freedom is the light to where your heart breathes
The feeling, the passion, a lifting – an 'ease'

Love is a tale to be told
Forgetting the heartbreaks and mixing in with the mould

Hold out your heart
At bay
Keep wishing
Come what may

Lovers gaze at one another
Friends love each other

But I am merely a person who has been in line for years
Waiting for the other true half of me

Taking My Life

Taking my life
Into my own two hands
With this knife
I think of why is it I stand

Sitting here
Thinking of you
Then thinking of what I am writing
Through and through

Simple words
You say to me
Make me stop
Make me think
Make me stare

I stopped thinking about her
From time to time
Because of what you said to me

I printed out your email
Not because of your poetic lines
But because I believed in thee

I even have two copies
One at home
One in my car…

But I stopped thinking about anything good
Permanently
Girls, I see
Bitches - maybe, too
But no one as sweet
As sweet as you

I try to keep myself on track
I try to make myself understand
That it is I who is in gain

I try to look onward and see the sun shine
Where the glow keeps glowing, never hides
But all I ever feel is rain - cold bitter rain

Not the type
That I love
Not the type with the blowing wind
But the type that just keeps pouring down on you
Until eventually, there is no more

It is that day – the one that has no more
That I am looking for

One day
The sun will shine my way
And I will need MIB sunglasses to get over them
Because they’ll be shining for me

Telling me
This is your day
You are the ghost
You are Ghosty

You will live on
You will understand
This is life
You have Hods to help you at hand

This is a phase
For if I fail
Then I am no better than she is
The pain
That I am feeling is cold, can’t explain it because it’s bitter

Sunshine
Come my way
Let your sunrays
Shine on me

Lead me
To the one who will truly love me for me
Lead me
To my happiness and to accomplishing my dreams
Lead me
To the white rose that truly exists on this Earth
Help me
Keep my friends - whether they like it or not

White roses
Red roses
Yellow, too

This is how much
I am missing
The one who is making me all sad and blue

I love you
Wherever you are
Whoever you are

And yes
To answer your question
A woman is all my life, love, and heart

For without her
I cannot live
Without her
I cannot exist

Words?
Maybe, true

But to me
I am willing to make it my reality
Even if it means that, I would die for it

Should They?

Should the hours not gain from your eyes?
The sense I felt when I was by your side?
The feeling in my heart when you were nearby?

Should I call out your name and ask for you?
Should I come out in the rain and drench just for you?
Should I retain myself in shame from just thinking over you?

Tell me what I should do
Because I am so in love with you

Rosemary Blu

...And the single rosebud
Came up to me and said
Where have you been all these years?

I smiled
Kneeled down and replied
'Somewhere where only God knows'

The faint smile
On that face
The withered clothes
Of their mums taste

Ragged as they are
As they will ever be
The time has come
Has come for me

Striking an attack
On betrayal
The divine evil
Of that snare

I still remember her
In my bitter cold
For it is the warmth of killing her
That keeps me from striking out my tongue like a toad

Summer sunshine
Don’t runaway
The time will come
When I will have what I may

Distance to the sun
To the seas
I hope I will see you soon
For my heart still bleeds

Truly

Ghosty

Rapidly Blue

Dear princess of my heart
I miss your love
I miss your spark

I miss you
As much as the sunshine misses the rain
Where your light will guide me and help me in my vain

I am nothing
None
No better

You are the world to me
You are my pearl
A flower with a petal

Beauty rises
Among the rain
Sunshine love
Hardened by mere pain

Pain of heartbreak
Pain of fear
Pain of tolerance
Of which I could not conceal

The winter’s breeze
The cold touch
The warmth of your breath
And your love’s rush

Sunshine glue
In my heart
Rapidly blue
Love, be a spark

Solid, sound, green
Where I may see your face in my dreams

Don’t go
Don’t run
Don’t rush

Stay with me
Don’t betray me
I am your one and only love

Tears in my eyes
As the rain
Now that I feel
That you are near me again

River wide
So near
My path is unknown
Yet, it seems so clear

Princess Under Moonlit Clouds

I hope that one day
I would put a smile on your face
So that the sun may shine gracefully in my sky
And the moonlight will guide my night
And your beauty would be embraced

And you
You would be a princess
Sitting there under the moonlit clouds
Under the stars
Underneath it all
Breathing in my soul
On your call to my heart
Underneath the fathoms of the legends
Which call upon us all

Wishing
Hoping
That you have a smile on your face
Right now
Wherever you are

I wish I could see your smiling face
Whereby eternity would halt for a second
Just to let me see the trace
And when you walk
The earth shatters with emotions
The air is filled with devotion
In honor of your presence
Where you would run around, like a child, with will and grace

Maybe I was once a star in your field
Shining down on you with gleam

Off The Top of My Head

The reason to which I stopped
To believe
That there is a reason
To actually live
Is anonymous…

What emotions
I quiver
In my state
What desire
What fanaticism
What pain – Why wait?

The drive you drive
In this life
The psycho-mental barriers
Of “I’ve never had that”

Your eyes look upon everything
And everything looks upon you
Why marry? Why contraire?
Why even think k it through?

“Two hearts
May beat as one”
One day, one of them
Is going to be as lonely as the setting sun

The single nerve
In my body
Tells me
That I am a nobody

Woven ties
Head in the sands
This what
I have come to understand

The dark night
The shirt, grey
Beautiful women
Will come and go away

What power I have
Is beyond me
Only the strongest will pass
And that is not me

Why pass?
When you can surpass?
The things I try to do
To not considers the things past

Die in Rome
Or Australia
It doesn’t matter
What’s going to kill ya, is going to kill ya

So now the question is:
What’s to going to happen now?
Will it be the red pill?
Or will it be the blue pill?

I may be confused
On what to do
I may be surprised
On whom I am
Maybe I should eat nuts
Or a coke
Do you really fancy one?
My mind spoke

Writing this
Off the top of my head
On a desktop
In my room
The golden treasure
Of the talented
Is where I patched it

Now

Now that you've touched my heart
And you've touched my soul
Now that you've gone
And taken it all

Now that you're no longer
And so far away
Now you're no longer near me
Nor do I see you face

The hardest part
Was having to convince myself
That I was still in love with you

Now that you've left me
Without a word, so long ago
I know its not true

The stars can collide
The river banks can open wide
But I no longer want to hide
Because I know I won't live long to survive

Missing You

I miss you
As much as the night misses the day
Where I would walk away your grief
And make your life happier, more straight

I wish to God
That there was a star
Named after you
Blessed by you
As it intensifies in lightening because of you
Twinkling, ever so brightly, because of a hope of seeing you
With the wind in the air
And the sea breath running through and through

Bright as this sunshine day was
Bright as it could ever be
It would never be as bright
As the day I would see thee

In return to the moment
Of the star
To understand
Who you really are

Wondrous world
Of you
Not black, not pink
But blue - velvet blue

Somehow, grabbing a moment
Is like thinking of you
For one brief second
I only think of you
No matter how bad the times are
I always come back to the thought of you

Simply because
You are you

You are a true wonder of the world
Running upside down, you make my life twirl
Truly you are, a pearl

Loving you
Missing you
Where are you, girl?

Me And Who I Am

… So I am told
That there is no Mrs. Right
The future is foretold
There is no darkness as there is no light

Sitting alone in this corner
As lonely as I can be
Trying to make out my life
And how I would love for it to seem

And as I write these words
To someone I don’t even know
I just think back on my life
And how it goes

Why live life
When you can’t achieve your dreams?
Why even bother
When all your life is full of sorrows and you’re never pleased?

I imagined myself
That I am with a gorgeous woman
And now that I am

I realize now
It’s not exactly what I want
Not really who I am

She’s everything a man may want
But not this one

If I had a chance
To undo the wrongs
I have done
I would

But since there isn’t
Then there really isn’t a thing
I can do about it
Because no one can turn back the clock

21
23
25

This is what it’s all about
This is my purpose
This is my life

My only hope
My only chance
Is that there’s a shining star up there shining down on me
Shining only for me
Telling me that there’s still a chance
But not now
Maybe later
Maybe just before I die
Maybe when I enter the light

I intend to live my life to the fullest
To push it to the limits
Even if it’s wrong
Because after all, you only live life once

But inside
I will always be possessive
I will always want something for me
I will always want someone just for me and not for anyone else
Because to share your someone with someone else
Is like sharing the Moon
Or breaking up the mountains
Or crossing the Atlantic on my own two feet
… It just can’t be done

Ghosty was the name
I chose for me
Because I like it
But above all, because it represents me

Someone who really isn’t there
Don’t laugh
‘Cause if you are
The you really don’t understand

I am just me
This is who I am
Forgive me for my honesty
But you must understand, this is who I am

I represent the soul of a man who is dead in battle
A woman who has no hope out of a fire
A three-month-old baby dying of A.I.D.S.
That’s just it
… I am the end of the universe

So, left to you
Are two choices in hand
You take the Carrot
Or the Banana

… Personally
I would take the Banana
Something soft
I could land on

Moral of the whole thing?
Is she out there? Is she really waiting for me?
… ‘A pocket full of dreams’

Maybe

Maybe life wasn't meant to be like this
Maybe I wasn't meant to be who I am
There are times when I feel at bliss
And others when I feel like I am dying

Maybe the Sun would shine on me one day
Maybe the Moon would one day shine its light upon me
Maybe I'll see your smile one day
Maybe, just maybe, we'll click, and you’ll like me

Maybe the line of the past wasn't meant to be this long
Maybe the future is meant to be shorter than this
Maybe I am just thinking too darn loud
Maybe I should forget about all of this

Maybe one day, I'll find you
And maybe on that day I'd invite you for a cup of tea
And you'd smile – oh my God - what a smile
You'd fill my soul and make it at ease

Maybe this poem is just too long
Maybe the feelings I have are just too strong
Maybe I should keep my feelings to myself
Maybe, I don't know, I wish I was right about being wrong

Love Will Find It's Way To My Heart

Love will find its way to my heart.
I keep on calling out in the dark.

Find me and you will see.
The passionate lover who lives inside of me.

Tell me your secrets.
I will tell you mine.
Full moon, in behold.
Our feelings intertwined.

Catch my heart.
Don't let it slip away.
I have a feeling that this day will come.
One day.

Lakes of Summer

Lakes of summer
Winters in hide
Don’t know when I’ll be taken
This misery that within me lies

'til that day - I love you all
'til that day - my sun would have gone

I Think, Therefore, I Am

I am only me
But if you want me to be
The stars, I will

If you want me to be
The moon, I will
But don't betray me

Don't display to me one face
And then show me another
Don't lie to me
Be as honest as you can be

Live and learn
That's life I suppose
The distance to the sun
Is farther than that to my heart

I Sometimes Wonder Why

I sometimes wonder why

Why the Moon should not fall into the sky?
Why the Sun would not crash down into my eyes?

Why the heart does go on?
Why should we ever live on our own?

These wonders
Scream
Inside my head

They swim
In their streams
Until they’re no longer alive – but dead

I stopped to think
But that was wrong
Where is the clear weather?
In this Moon, wind and Sun?

Where can you find
The perfect one?
When are the clouds
Never hiding the Sun?

When is a table
Not full of food?
When will I ever come
To find you?

The hope is unleashed
In my dreams
But reality surprises me
With astounding things

Where you may find water
There was always a stream
But at the end of that, is there is a pot of gold?

And where you may find the Sun shining its hot rays
On a cold winter’s day
Would you come to find a hot spot?

Ironicies
Ironicies
Ironicies

Life
Does not cease
To mock with me

Life is a flower
In a vase
You have to tender to its needs
To its cares

But if life is full of such dirt
And that dirt is too hard to get off the ground
Then what is the point, after all?

You plant the seeds
To bring in the trees
But rain just does not come down

Mirror, mirror
On my dull bathroom wall
Who is the ugliest, unluckiest
Man of them all?

Moving on
To another stage
Another ground

Where my face
Takes another pace
To more than just a frown

‘Take a good look at my face’
‘You’ll see my smile looks out of place’
‘If you look closer it’s easier to trace’
‘The tracks of my tears’

Simple mother
Simple father
Lonely son

Where
Has this story
Ever gone wrong?

Have you ever seen the Sun set on the beach?
Have you ever come to feel the loneliness of the cold winter’s breeze?

Have you ever picked up a flower all by yourself
And given it to yourself again to attract attention?

Have you ever met eyes
With the one you so dearly loved
And never come close
To the one you really dreamed of?

Have you seen the Sun
Set on the sea?
Have you ever, ever in your life
Ever dreamt of me?

Simple hopes
Complicated fears
One leads to another
Reality! Lead on! I am in the rear!

If one thinks
That talking like this
Can lead to insanity

Then count me insane
For I have lost all feeling of pain
That be stands me

My life is not worth living
Nor should anyone live it for me
Oh, this tangled web
Of which we weave

‘Ask not’
‘For who the bells chime’
For they chime for me

The rivers dance
They galore
Of what I spree

The only source of life that I can never come to compare is you
You are my true savior
My true one white rose
You are the one I turn to

But
You are nowhere to be seen
Untouchable, unforgettable, unforgivable, unlovable
Why are you doing this to me?

You, yourself, your soul
You are a ghost to me
One of which
I feel inside of me
One of which
I miss endlessly

I suffer alone
I live alone
I will die alone

My world is black
Without you
Show yourself, come out of the crowd
Don’t do this to me

My mind can only take as much as it can
And my limits are being pushed farther to the end

Somehow
I see you smiling
In a vision
With a graceful smile

Something
Astonishing
To be able to visualize such a feeling

I only hope
That you are feeling
Of what my soul is bleeding

I only hope
That would look at me
Just for a glance

So that I can tell
So that I may know
So that I may finally understand

May I live to see that day
May I live to see the smile off your angelic face

May I die, and not see a tear roll down rose red cheeks
May we live to see each other in reality, not just in our dreams

My heart
Will always be
Yours

I remain
Pleadingly yours
Ghosty

I Only Miss About You

I sometimes wonder why

Why the Moon should not fall into the sky?
Why the Sun would not crash down into my eyes?

Why the heart does go on?
Why should we ever live on our own?

These wonders
Scream
Inside my head

They swim
In their streams
Until they’re no longer alive – but dead

I stopped to think
But that was wrong
Where is the clear weather?
In this Moon, wind and Sun?

Where can you find
The perfect one?
When are the clouds
Never hiding the Sun?

When is a table
Not full of food?
When will I ever come
To find you?

The hope is unleashed
In my dreams
But reality surprises me
With astounding things

Where you may find water
There was always a stream
But at the end of that, is there is a pot of gold?

And where you may find the Sun shining its hot rays
On a cold winter’s day
Would you come to find a hot spot?

I Miss You A Lot

I miss you a lot
I wish you were here by my side
Cuddling up in front of a fire

Love to hear you whisper in my ear
Those loving words I wish to hear
And the feel your breath against my chest
This power over me, you possess

Don't say we shouldn't
Say we should try
You never know
What might come by

This is a flower
From me to you
Blue not pink
This is how I feel because of you

Helpless when you are not around
Defenseless when you are
These feelings you stir inside of me you have no idea of
I love you, whoever you say you are

Heaven

Wonder what the world would see of me?
If I pray?
If I grieve?
If I die today?

The windows of the world. Are open now. You can see your obstacles. You can fly all around.

“I can see clearly now the rain has gone.
I can see all obstacles in my way.”

The Sun shines so bright.
Behind the clouds.
Moving it away.

The tender night.
Of which you are bound.
Will come, one day.

Sometimes
I lie awake in my bed
And just think

Why did I lose my way?
Why wasn’t I pushed back?
Why couldn’t I resist?

You could not resist the temptations. Only the strong can. Your will is weak, but your heart is strong. Thus, one day, you will understand. You will understand. That there’s a day for everything. To lie. To cheat. And even to sing. Your past is past. Your present is here. The future is to follow. Although it is unclear. What you don’t know. Won’t hurt you. Thus, you must show. That no one can hurt you.

The mind. Is a simple game. You control it. You control your way. Don’t set your foot into the dark path of sorrow. Follow the yellow-bricked road.

I have tried
And I have failed
Resulting
To no avail

What must I do?
In order to retain?
The happiness that I once had?
The smile I once had on my face?

I saw the Moon last night
High above the clouds
Swiftting slowly with its eyes
On everything around

Silver sky
Dark blue
When will I ever
Come to find you?

In one voice. In one strong voice. The world united and said;

“You are your own will
You’re your own protector
Kill or be killed
For you are your own savior”

The weakness in my heart
Became strong
The way people laughed at me
Mattered to me, no more

I could not be silent
Any longer
I can only speak the truth right now
Than to become a blunder

I stood up, with the flag in one hand. And the other rose up so high. People rushed to me to hear what I wanted to say. The reason to which I proclaim. To what I am today.

I am a human being!
Just as you are!
Just as our mothers gave birth to us!
How we live, and the way we are!

They took the flag out of my right
And tied both behind my back
They put a gag into my mouth
And blinded my eyes for that

“You’re not worthy of living”
They said
“You’re a disgrace to the human beings”
They went on to say

One of them shuffled something out of his pocket. Clicked it. Placed it against the back of my head.

“Not to worry”
He said
“I’ll put you out of your misery”
Then I was blinded

It was dark for a moment
Then I could see some light
I still couldn’t see a thing
Like darkness had called its force upon the night

I was flying
I was floating
Something was pulling me towards the light
Pulling me softly

And then there was nothing
All I could hear was some strange music

The air was filled with some strange music. I could hear nothing else. The tugging had eventually stopped. I was alone.

All of a sudden, this bright shiny light came towards me. It was fascinating. Indescribable. I could not dare myself to reach out and touch it. It was magnificent.

And then I heard a beautiful feminine voice. As if humming. Appealing to me to listen. As I concentrated, I could vaguely make out the words;

“They were wrong about you
They don’t know you”

Naturally, this came as a surprise to me, alongside with everything else that was happening. Having some kind of manner or being talking to me, or at least, I thought it was.

What are you talking about?
Who was wrong about what?

They say your inner wishes
Become your dreams
But if these are my wishes
Then I know that they cannot be achieved

“You are wrong”

How so?

“The future is in your hands
And you know
That it is you who must understand
To where your future must go”

Somehow
This got to me
How I must understand
My own needs

It’s the business of perfection
For my life at hand
How this simple process
Will help me get rid of the miseries in my mind

The river of life
Is at flow
Where it will stop
Nobody knows

I stopped trying to find out. On whom I am. I saw what a waste it was. Just trying to understand.

Then these few thoughts popped into my mind. Out of nowhere;

Go back
To whom you must be
The person inside of you
Ghosty

Heart of Mine

Dear heart of mine
And sorrow of my life
The turns have turned to be worse
The commotions we are having take me into a more darker room

The life
The sound
That I keep on hearing

Why is this so?
Why is it that this has become?
Where has it gone, this feeling?

God made Adam
And he made Eve
Together they would live
Together, until the day they die, they would always be

Now it is you
Now it is me
Now that we are apart
Tell me, where do we go from here?

'Tis the sounds
That the children hear
'Tis the day
That I will be burried beneath

Simple joys
Of the past
My heart is not a toy
Nor are you a target, or something like that

Tell me now
What will I do?
Now that God has seperated your heart from mine?
Now that you are where you are, and I am where I am?

The clouds move over
The Sun sets over
Life goes on
But my feelings get lower

I am standing now
At the edge of this hill
Thinking of what we used to do
What we used to say, back then

I see the ground
Way up from here
The only sound
That I hear is the sound of the wind

Should I let go
To life's miseries
And if I do
Who would be there for me?

Goodnight

Good night
May God bless us all
May he guide you to the peace you should find in your soul
Love is a carrot not an apple
The difference is not respect but perspective
Reach out and touch the sun
Where you'll feel the glowing warmth
Maybe one day you'll understandThat we are all just human beings

Five Reasons To Stay Alive

Five reasons to stay alive

Love
Hope
Life
God
And you

Last death wishes on a blind man’s tongue

Bear not the light
With a frightened face
For the sun cannot harm you
Where it does not rise

Life is a like a candle
One day it will wither away
And along with it
It will take you

Safe is the place
On the other side
Although it may never have green grass
You will never hear any lies

The blind man stroke his chin
Crossed his heart
Faced the sky

His eyes were as they were
But it looked as if they were searching for something
What will the heart cannot deny

The air stiffened
The man was gone
His body was there
But his soul was not

Til death do us part
I will always have a broken heart

Someday I will die
And you will not be here
I hope that day never comes
For I don’t have a blind man’s courage nor spears

Butter and cream
Marshmallows in your dreams
I am hanging by a thin line
Between reality and fantasy

Finding Your Soul

Finding your soul
On a cold winter's day
The reason to which life is
Come what may

You are alone
On an island
Where no one can talk to you
Where no one can reach where I am

I speak of wonders
I speak of dreams
I speak of love
And what it can achieve

I see you
In my dreams
I see my life
And to where it leads

I try to lead
A normal life
I try to conceive
On why she had to lie

I try to understand
Why we cannot talk about her
I try to believe
That it's in my best interest

But everytime I see a woman
Or a couple holding hands
It breaks my heart

To see what we could have become
To see the dreams we dreams
All go to dust

Simple emotions
In the heart
Complicated enough in the soul
This is how agony starts

Tell me how it will be
Now that I have nobody...?

Ghosty

Far Away

Saw you there
Today
Didn't know what to do
Or what to say

Your hair curled up
Behind your ear
The way your smile just shined through
And blinded me from whoever was there

Black eyes
Tanned complexion
Black hair
Simple linguistics, here at stake

I thought I would stay
But then I thought, hey
You wouldn't give me an eye

I was struggling with myself
I tried to compel myself
And in the end, I just got up from where I lie

I dragged my feet away
I took my heart with me, too
I couldn't tell whether I liked you
Or was it just another lusting moment that was trying to overtake me as if I was some 'love tool'

I took myself
Far away
I took myself
Far, far away

Maybe we'll meet some other day
Maybe one day I'll actually find true love, someday

Existence

Cross the fire and the furnace
Drive me wild with these lies that are burning

25
Still going on
Engine still going strong
Believe in what? No long

Drive the fire into the wood
Livewire the escape. Close the hood

Decapitated by a madman with a chainsaw
Escape the deathtrap. There's always a flaw
Full moon. Brightest night you ever saw
These thoughts are driving me insane – is there no answer to my call?

Live your dreams
Be what you can be
Let life handle
The heart's misunderstandings

'One day I saw a rainbow'
'Flutter through a large waterfall'
'There was no pot at the end'
'There was no water at all'

Cloud Over Sea

I won’t lie
I’ll try not to cry
Anyone who will see me, will notice desperation in my eyes

The longitude and the latitude of love, the core in my heart
Why it’s not there, I don’t want to start
Should I fall in love? Would I find that spark?

The spirit I hold. I breathe. I die. Within your hands.
Never to live. Never to see. Never to touch. Not a chance.

I am merely a cloud. Which sails the sea.Wave your hand. If you see me

Bounce

You're sunshine won't come through my curtains
At least not today
I was hoping we would have a chance with this romance deal
Start a brand new page

It's not your fault
I'm not blaming you
No longer do I have someone
That I can actually talk to

Broken water
High tides
Would someone
Please just tell me why?

I get this close
To someone and they get blown away
I feel like the sunshine I once had
Has been cast away

No more sweet talk
No more looking through the mirror to check out the reflection in your brown eyes
No more hubby-dubby
No more lies to die for, especially not tonight

Little boy
Sitting sad with his head on his palm
Thinking how will he get through this?
Will he ever get it right instead of wrong?

Stupid questions to be asking yourself
Stupid way to victimize yourself in such a dreadful manner
One week gone, you're all alone
And your brain starts to bounce its electrical waves

Life is ahead
Death is so
Which one will I gain first?
I never will know

8th Wonder

Some said to me
You can never tell
What life will ever bring to you
“How goes it?” – “Well!”

My heart beats on
For you
Everyday
I think of you

Everyday
There is not a day
I do not think of you, neigh

But truth to be told
That you are not here
The shadow that I miss
My right hand, my eyes, my ears

You are like a ghost
To me
Your soul, your hope
Always seems to be there for me

But it is the sight of you
That I miss
The one true white rose
Who, in my dreams, only lives

Your presence
Your care
Your sense of elegance
Your smile, your glare

You are like the Rainbow
Only a million colors more
You are like Snow White
But without the Seven Dwarfs

You are something
Indescribable to me
You are the eighth wonder of this worldYou are the tree of eternity

H Y S T E R I A - Part Two: Death In The Eyes of Love

She lights the fire.
She cries in pain.
She dries her tears.
She’s going insane.

She lived in peace.
When she was with him.
Now she has the creeps.
Because she’s lost him.

She walks around the neighbourhood.
Half-naked.
Draw’s up to a school.
And makes a fool of herself.

She strolls in the hall.
Crying out for him.
Thinking if she’d call.
He’d answer it.

Yacking the children.
Out of the way.
While they fall on the ground.
And cry in pain.

Teachers come out.
To see what’s wrong.
She start’s to fool about.
By singing this song.

“My dear.
Has come to me!
I’ll live with him.
Endlessly!”

She tries to protect herslef.
From the Police.
But all she did was kill herself.
When they shot her to maintain peace

H Y S T E R I A - Part One

He wakes up
In the middle of the night.
Screamin’ about.
Giving everyone a fright.

He’s asleep.
Not awake.
But with one difference.
There’s the pain.

His mum comes.
To hold him near.
But all he does.
Is fume out in screams.

His dad’s in.
Clutches him firmly.
It’s no good.
He keeps yelling; “Let me!”

Throws the flower vase.
At the window.
They just can’t understand.
His raging soul.

He takes the chair.
And hits his mother.
She feels so much pain.
How will she ever recover?

Then the boy.
Throws himself out.
All is done.
No evidence is left about

Amy

The beating of my heart
A gorgeous scent
The feeling of you
That just expands

Too long it has been
Too long without you
Too long, Tulips
Violet, blue

Amy…

You are the sun that shines over my soul
You are the breath I need to breathe in when I am running low
You are the guide I run to
I hide beneath from the dark evil glare
Of this world

I've been walking alone down this road to nowhere
Where life meets light
And where chances look at you in the eyes causing them to go red from the glare

Night is the curtain
When I have no blanket upon me
When time is in flight
And my dreams haunt me

Tell me
When will it all stop?
I just to see you before……Before I drop

Blue Ribbon Beauty - Part Two: The Coffeeshop - Again

She would see him everyday at the same coffee shop

Your brown eyes are always sad
It is why, that I would like to understand

You always sit on your own
Always alone
Sometimes with your friends
Sometimes just your phone

I would like to come up to you and smile
But I am afraid to give it away that it is you, I like

I sit behind you everytime I am there
Listening in to everything you say and do
Wishing you would crack up a joke of yours
Or just do the cute things you would do

He notices her; he wishes she would approach him
Smile
Perhaps even a gesture

But he's depressed already because she ignores him
Bad luck is just his life
Can't really call it that – it's just a matter of pressure
The growing pains of time

It seems such a surprise to see you here
With your great eyes and smiling face
It seems like a nice gesture from fate
To put us here in this position, this place

Night upon night, I think of you
This is the story of my heart, uneventful, yet, true

'til this night is through
I am always thinking of you

Why is it you smile the way you do?
Why is it, your heart, my soul falls to?

Why do I feel like I need to talk to you?
Why is it, this way, we are neighbors to the moon?

And after a few days
A few nights
A few years apart they catch each other's eye
They think of the years and why

Why they ever passed the chance to get close to each other
Why ever think about it for another moment
Why they put themselves in that long tunnel
Why they came out of it as if nothing had happened

And now that life is giving them a second chance
Now that what was past is past
Would they take that chance?
Would they finally understand?

Would you like to sit down and have a chat?

I would like to but I …

Can't…?

Don't get me wrong
It's not that I don't want to
I would love to sit and have a chat with you
But in front of people – I can't – and that's the truth

It's tough as it is trying to find the right person
Than it is to find them and not be to have a conversation with them

Did you know that it's your brown eyes I dream of every night?
Did you know that I try to listen to the wind that blows on the trees wishing it would whisper your name?
Did you know that everytime I see you, my heart misses a beat?
Did you know that when you leave the coffee shop, I would wish for more chances for us to meet?

A tear down the eyes
Slip from depression into life
Share impossible feelings before you're told that you've wasted your time
Thoughts roam and rhyme

Do you know that I think about you everyday?
That it is your smile I daydream about when I stare away?

Lips sealed. Shut
Feelings within, hurt

The definition of life is taken away
When the reason behind it, is so close, yet so far away

Walking away
She tries not to look back
To see him cry silently
Where he would retreat to the dark

I wish I could tell you how much I like you
I wish I could

I wish I could hold your hand
Make you understand
That this situation at hand
Is the reason behind our falling
Our hearts calling
Senses, for some time, frozen
The probability of us ever getting together, is through

I can't forget about you
Even if I wanted to
Even if you asked me to
There's nothing, about it, that I can do

The warmth, the feeling – the passion within
The darkness, the cold – that overwhelms us, to win

Can I at least see you here another time?
Can I at least keep the hope of us to meet for our hearts to intertwine?

Now staring at a glass window

I swear, that's a smile, I see
Won't you say yes for me?

Yes

His heart flew

Yes, I would

His heart soared

Yes, I would love to

He could shout out joy to the world

Turning her head, with a tear still in her eye
He moved over to her and gave her a tissue

To me you are my life
I don't know what I would do without you

With that, she smiled

I wish I could kiss you right now

Blue Ribbon Beauty - Part One

We smiled
We just kept on smiling
Her eyes into mine
Our lives were connected

‘Hi’
‘Hi’
We stood there. We didn’t talk
We couldn’t speak. We couldn’t breathe. We just had to fall

‘Can I buy you a coffee?’
‘Maybe a drink?’
Anything to make you happy
Anything to make you stay with me

My life is embodied by the jewels that are around me
Your eyes; your lips; the elegance that surrounds me

‘If I could be this night’
‘I would ask to stay forever like this’
‘Why is that?’
‘So I can always remember you like this’

She just stood there and smiled
Her eyes gleamed like an innocent child

‘Would you like to sit down and have a chat?’
‘Maybe a better chance for us to know each other, to get to understand’

She was like a wildflower
Blooming, while she gazed
My heart was racing
Unstoppable, at this stage

Blue ribbon, on her hair
You’d think I was nuts
But I assure you
I have seen her before. Where and how? And why was I unaware?

Life beyond life
Beauty beyond compare
This night
This passion flare

Looking at her
‘You’re late’
She looked at me suddenly, worryingly
‘What took you so long to come into my life? Today?’

I only wish
I had seen you before
I have only dreamed of this moment
For a night, with you, to hit into my heart – the centre of my love, the core

Her cheeks blushed
She stared into the floor
She was smiling deeply
Yet she could not hide it at all

She flapped her hair over her ear
That is beauty
That is beauty
To me

I wish I could have said to her
That day
How could I let her go?
‘I have to go now; maybe we’ll meet some other day’

As she got up heading for the door
She turned around, smiled back at me, but unaware
That as she headed out
Something had fallen off of her, but I think she did it on purpose to show how much she cared

Getting up to reach it
Before it fell to the floor
She left, but the image of her, in my heart, it will always be
I pray that I will know her, one day more

As I knew I had another chance
Because of the blue ribbon within my hands

A Never-Ending Quest For A Dream To Be - Part Three

A never-ending quest
For a dream to be
For fire to be fire
And dreams to be believed

You think of the love
That was once portrayed
You thought of it then
You think of it again

Touched in the heart
Touched in the soul
Come to think of it
Your heart is not yours

Lost in the clouds
Of hope, and gaze
Don’t turn to me
You’ll lose your sane

For thought and dreams
Are rendered in time
Once you believe
You would have found out, it was a lie