Teaser

There's an article in theweek dated the 21st of September, 2005 about me talking about my previous book Rapidly Blue and my new book Wonderous World.

Enjoy reading it..

Word Verification

Folks, you'll have to excuse me. But I have turned on 'word verification' option for this blog because lately there has been a spread of people who are taking advantage of the 'anonymous user' option to posting comments on blogs with indecent comments.

Basically, all you'll be asked to do is to verify after posting your comment that you're as human as you can ever be by typing in the letters you see in front of you, that's all.

It's a piece of cake..

I apologize again..

This is how I feel - How about you?

I wish I could tell you how I feel
You have me at a corner unable to speak my heart out
The face I portray in front of my friends when I don't see you around
The sadness that I am filled with when all I can think of is you
You're not here
I can't speak to you
I can't even meet you
And the cards in my destiny keep on changing
The wind keeps on a-breezing
Slap me so I can wake up from my daydream
Tell me there's no luck in the future or the past
Just make me udnerstand that you're not meant for me
Rather than having me burn from inside
From looking for you
Searching for you
Thinking of you
Yearning for your presence
Longing to just talk to you
To see you
Just to enjoy the warmth that you spread when you're around
I wish I could get you out of my mind but I can't
I understand everything, by my heart doesn't; won't; and shan't

What is it that makes me lost for words?

Is it the way that you just talk to me?
Or is it the way that you smile at me?
Should I close my eyes and ears, I would still see you, hear you in front of me

I fear the worst, most of the times
I fear that I will never find the true meaning to life
But when I see you and the way you behave, I believe that time can be rewritten all over again

I can't be held responsible for my emotions
Its just not possible to avoid this heart of mine
If my mind were to do that one day
I would surely die of insanity of having to take your image out of my brain

Lately
Everytime I am down
I think of you and I am up again

Why?
Because your smile will simply not die
Never have I seen a frown on your graced face

Anyone can write poetry like I can
Its the talk, that I seek, behind the pen and the pad

I realize you're still in a mix up
But what can I say?
My eyes look for you
Almost everyday

If these words are intended for something
Then intended they are
To break through the ice
That baracades your heart

Ciao?

This blog is now on suspension until further notice..

A Poem About You

Sometimes it’s hard to think
Sometimes it’s hard to imagine anything at all
Right now I can't imagine my life without having to talk to you or seeing you
Any day at all

Don’t get me wrong
I only feel that we easily connect as the friends or cousins we are
We needn't go any far
Believe me; these words come from the heart

Not out of being depressed or feeling sad
If ever at all, it’s because I am glad
Glad that I have someone who I can talk to freely happily and almost without a boundary
Even though that we can never be together
Right now or possibly ever, doesn't make me happy but I respect you
Don’t ground me

I have said what I said about how I feel
I am the kind of person whose feelings do not conceal
I am like what most people say an open book to be read
If you ever had the time
To read me once in a while
Let me know what you think of the author
That’s, if.. You have the time

What pushes me to you is not how beautiful you are
Nor your sizzling figure
Or your simply gorgeous smile
That makes the world pink along with you
But it’s what you have to talk about
The way you talk about it
And the way you listen, always have fun, and never seem to be depressed, ever

This is all I can say
If I pushed myself over the line, please excuse me
I only dared myself to say what's on my mind to be honest and true to you, believe me
Should you not agree with what I said
Then you can ignore it totally and just let it goes, and forget

I apologize again
I sincerely do
This is what I am
And this.. Is what I do

Dear Winter..

Dear winter
Dear heart
Dear eyes
That sparks in the dark

I wish you could see what I could see
I wish you could feel what I could feel
I dare not say how I do
I dare not look into your eyes the way I want to

I would love to tell you
Eye to eye
Heart to heart
Had I the wil
The courage
The power

But to move such a feeling
Out of my body
Through my mind
By my lips
To say your name
To have your image all the time in my mind

But what can I say?
What can I do?
Behind these white sheets
Behind these semi colored curtains

I see your smile
All I want to do is smile back
And when you laugh it feels like heaven is spreading its wings on me
Although I am suffering, silently because of what is going on with me

My only wish
My only desire
Is that you would have been free as a bird

But my luck is bad
And sometimes under minded
And that's why you're so far away from me

I hide behind my smile
The tears that I should be crying
The pain I hold in my heart from the silent darkness that I am lost in
Suffering, tear by tear
Whispering, for you to bring me in

What can I say?
What can I do?
I am here for a reason
Perhaps many

Life beyond life
Scream beyond scream
Silent as a disease
Silent beyond the whispering wind in the trees

Flare upon flare
Time after time
This is my curse
This is my life as it is pointed out in the timeline

But I am only kidding to myself
Because you have heart set on someone else
And we have only just met
And I am bound to stay for all time like this

How can I know?
How can I see?
How can I put my eyes to the path?
To the way I should seek?

Raindrops
Seashells
Waves upon the sea

Some things
Are just
Not meant to be

Hey folks...

I got some good news and some bad news...

The good news is that I am out of hospital (not that I have that many fans through my blog or outside - awwwww).

The bad news however is that I am postponing my book release to Autumn or Winter of this year because I feel it is a) Incomplete and b) a bad time for me to market my book at this time because it's summer and none of you would be around plus the fact that I am in no condition of doing anything about the project.

So my most sincere apologies to anyone who was anticipating the arrival of the new book. But please do keep in touch for any updates should there be any on this blog or SleeplessInMuscat .

So, see ya around..

Your Whisper Is My Joy

I hear the whisper of your voice in my ear

Tended words, do I hear

You giggle

You laugh

You make my heart bounce with joy

I sit there on the phone

Hearing you out

Tears, in my eyes, from such happiness atoy

Loving words, I do hear

Expressions, from your face, I sense in your voice - I feel

When you fiddle with a pencil in your hand

What's going on your mind - I'd like to understand

The time you were smiling and wrapping your finger around with your hair

It is you, I would like to see. Your eyes twinkling, with a smile upon your face

Tears, not Drops

I don't want to say anything to you anymore

You mocked at me and my heart you tore

You denied that you had anything to do with me

You said you wouldn't be the last or the first to do this to me

Yet the day shines like nothing had ever happened

And night comes over like the midnight blanket

And I cry upon my bed thinking of the times we had

And why was it, I would wonder, you never did understand

When I am alone I would stroll into the alley of my thoughts

Within me, my heart throbs

And my eyelids, the fill up with tears not drops

And I cry for you silently in my soul, but you hear me not

Now that I am alone, does your heart ever ask about me?

Or am I just another leaf, falling off an autumn tree?

The Rest is up to You

How far is the sun that's in your eyes?

The twinkle that sparkles when you smile?

By the beauty which you are graced.

I smile, because of the feelings, inside me, that erupt.

Oh wonder of beauty and love that is ever to meet.

Is this the chance that I ask for or is it too soon to be deemed?

Walking statue of life

Build upon emotional tides

Where timing is impecable

You're tempted to dance with the Devil

But God is in your favor

And the rest is up to you

My Love for you is out of this World

My love for you is out of this world

And I love you so much that it hurts me to see you go away so far away to a distant place. While I am here.

Thinking of you.

Dreaming of you.

Night and day.

I wish you were here.

Right beside me.

Loving me.

Holding me.

Tenderly.

I wish for you all the happiness in the world - because my love for you is out of this world...

My Eternal Valentine's

I saw you one day
I saw you smile elegantly
I saw your beauty being dangled like a boat upon the seas

I saw the blue ribbon on your hair
I saw the light that shines off you like moonlight in the midnight air

I saw you and I thought 'What an Angel'
I saw you and my heart pounded increasingly leaving my senses fabled

Brown eyes, black hair
The truth - the beauty inside her heart
Injected by inner beliefs
Tender loving moments - will she ever help me out of the dark?

I wake up to the noise of the people around me
Destined to be alone? I hope not. I hope one day she would surround me

Living the daylight in my dreams
Reality, will one day, be achieved
Senses to touch, to smell, to breathe
You, my love, are my eternal valentine's - the one single beauty, I would always be there for thee

Is It You?

How far is the sun that's in your eyes?

The twinkle that sparks when you smile?

By the beauty which you are graced

I smile because of the feelings inside me, that erupt

Oh wonder of beauty and love ever to meet

Is this the chance that I ask for or is it too soon to be deemed?

Walking statue of life

Built upon emotional tides

Where timing is impeccable

You're tempted to dance with the Devil

But God is in your favor

And the rest is up to you

I find it hard not to think about you everyday

I find it hard not to fall for you

I wish I could tell you all and more

Attraction at sight

My feelings i cannot deny

Is this the truth?

Are you really the one for me?

I'd like to say I love you

But I can't

Whatever is between us

Is bigger than what love can comprehend

The delightful tone of your voice

The smile, the way your laugh twists my choice

I wish I could say I love you

But I can't

This is bigger than what love can ever be

I know this because your tag says 'made in Heaven'

But does that mean that we will ever be?

I could always call you honey

Or honeycomb

Or just plain love

But that would be an understatement of the above

I could go on 'til the end of the night

About the how, when, and why

I would search the Heavens for the answer

But in the end, the answer is in my heart

Shattered by the glass that is portrayed

I breathe in the air around me

Scent of color and stench

Dirt, I am in, covered to the skin

Sense to the touch, smell and the mind, to think

Flower upon the beach

My hand in yours in the winter breeze

Is this reality? Or a dream?

Insanely, Yours

I wonder of you being alone at night

Your breath silently on the nightly pillow

Your presence in my life

Is what keeps me warm in this cold

I stay awake at night and hear you call my name

Through the window do I gaze

I see the moonlight through the glass does it shade

And yet, you are not here to share this moment with me

The blankets around me, do I wrap

The bitterness, the loneliness that makes my facely tears gasp

Thinking of you in this winter night

Do you hear my thoughts?

Do you hear me scream silently alone?

For I am forever, insanely yours

I Love You So Much

I love you so much.

I will never let you go.

Not as long as there is a breath in my body.

Not as long as my heart beats for you.
And not as long as you say you love me.

For my love for you is most definitely - true

Dark 'tis the day without You

In the meanwhile
I am driven to think of you all the time
Whilst I walk in the park
I see this couple hand in hand

Looking, gazing at each other smiling away
One playing with the other's hair
Speaking softly so no one else can hear
What loving words they share
I would die to feel like that again
Just to hold you in my arms once again

Flowers can die
Clouds can fly over the seas
But a person like you
I will never again meet

Blue Eyes Blue

Blue eyes blue
Why I wonder I love you
Is it because of your curly hair?
Or the beautiful smile you always wear?

Blue eyes blue
Why I wonder I so adore you
You make my saddest day a happy one
God! I love you so much!

Oh wonder of beauty and love that is ever to meet
Oh how I wonder if this is all real?
I wonder if I'm living a dream
If I am, let me not wake from my sleep

Life is a child
Waiting for the next toy to play with
You are that child to me in my eyes
One to be hugged so tight
To love, to endure, to embrace
Smile upon me with your happy face

Blue eyes blue
How I wonder if you know this is the way I think about you?

A Flower Is Only As Pretty As A Flower

The world revolves around so fast around

Time is without a bound

Life is just 'one of those days'

Pretty bees walking past and through

Boys and girls talk and play

Your mind's thoughts start to form a queue

Shattered glass of the past

Future to what we do not understand

How is it that life is like a maze?

Or is it all a master game?

Fever touches me high

I wheeze under the pain

And feel as if a painful rock on my chest

That holds my will to say what I want to say

But a flower is only as pretty as a flower

And the rosebuds with their intoxicating scent will endower

The very confusion that clouds my will power

And by that time I will have found out that this all written for me

Run, David, Run

Run David, run
Run to where the soul never dies in the horizon of the sun
To where life gives you the joy of being by her side

When you wake up
And the first thing you smell is her scent
You just stay there in bed
Looking at her sleeping head
Wondering if this is Heaven or Hell

Jumping to conclusions ahead of time
Run David, run into the sun's eyes

The birds cheer outside
The air is still
The only sound you can hear
Is her breathing deep

'Should I get up and walk away?'
'Should I stay and let time take it's toll?'
It's funny how silly thoughts
Can start to creep into your mind and begin to roam

Run David, don't stop
Don't stop 'til you have found the one

Blue Eyes Blue

Blue eyes blue
Why I wonder I love you
Is it because of your curly hair?
Or the beautiful smile you always wear?

Blue eyes blue
Why I wonder I so adore you
You make my saddest day a happy one
God! I love you so much!

Oh wonder of beauty and love that is ever to meet
Oh how I wonder if this is all real?
I wonder if I'm living a dream
If I am, let me not wake from my sleep

Life is a child
Waiting for the next toy to play with
You are that child to me in my eyes
One to be hugged so tight
To love, to endure, to embrace
Smile upon me with your happy face

Blue eyes blue
How I wonder if you know this is the way I think about you?

Rapidly Blue 2: Nova's Secret

Yes..

I'm back.. after a long period of waiting.

Had some things to take care of - literally. Ha ha ha ha.

And now that I am back I would like to announce also that I am on the verge of publishing my second book titled - Rapidly Blue 2: Nova's Secret.

It should be out by the end of February and I am hoping to reach an agreement with my sponsor to donate the full proceeds of the sales towards the Tsunami relief program.

This second book marks quite a truimph to me, not only in the literall sense, but also on a personal overview of the events that I have been through (although it may not show within the poems marked inside of the published artwork).

Pushed by the positive vibe that it holds, and the truth that it tries to unfold in this sphere which we live in, I am hoping Rapidly Blue 2: Nova's Secret will have a better chance at success if not in the personal overview much less than that of the message that I am trying to get across.

Here's to the future..