Cross the fire and the furnace
Drive me wild with these lies that are burning
25
Still going on
Engine still going strong
Believe in what? No long
Drive the fire into the wood
Livewire the escape. Close the hood
Decapitated by a madman with a chainsaw
Escape the deathtrap. There's always a flaw
Full moon. Brightest night you ever saw
These thoughts are driving me insane – is there no answer to my call?
Live your dreams
Be what you can be
Let life handle
The heart's misunderstandings
'One day I saw a rainbow'
'Flutter through a large waterfall'
'There was no pot at the end'
'There was no water at all'
August 17, 2004
Cloud Over Sea
I won’t lie
I’ll try not to cry
Anyone who will see me, will notice desperation in my eyes
The longitude and the latitude of love, the core in my heart
Why it’s not there, I don’t want to start
Should I fall in love? Would I find that spark?
The spirit I hold. I breathe. I die. Within your hands.
Never to live. Never to see. Never to touch. Not a chance.
I am merely a cloud. Which sails the sea.Wave your hand. If you see me
I’ll try not to cry
Anyone who will see me, will notice desperation in my eyes
The longitude and the latitude of love, the core in my heart
Why it’s not there, I don’t want to start
Should I fall in love? Would I find that spark?
The spirit I hold. I breathe. I die. Within your hands.
Never to live. Never to see. Never to touch. Not a chance.
I am merely a cloud. Which sails the sea.Wave your hand. If you see me
Bounce
You're sunshine won't come through my curtains
At least not today
I was hoping we would have a chance with this romance deal
Start a brand new page
It's not your fault
I'm not blaming you
No longer do I have someone
That I can actually talk to
Broken water
High tides
Would someone
Please just tell me why?
I get this close
To someone and they get blown away
I feel like the sunshine I once had
Has been cast away
No more sweet talk
No more looking through the mirror to check out the reflection in your brown eyes
No more hubby-dubby
No more lies to die for, especially not tonight
Little boy
Sitting sad with his head on his palm
Thinking how will he get through this?
Will he ever get it right instead of wrong?
Stupid questions to be asking yourself
Stupid way to victimize yourself in such a dreadful manner
One week gone, you're all alone
And your brain starts to bounce its electrical waves
Life is ahead
Death is so
Which one will I gain first?
I never will know
At least not today
I was hoping we would have a chance with this romance deal
Start a brand new page
It's not your fault
I'm not blaming you
No longer do I have someone
That I can actually talk to
Broken water
High tides
Would someone
Please just tell me why?
I get this close
To someone and they get blown away
I feel like the sunshine I once had
Has been cast away
No more sweet talk
No more looking through the mirror to check out the reflection in your brown eyes
No more hubby-dubby
No more lies to die for, especially not tonight
Little boy
Sitting sad with his head on his palm
Thinking how will he get through this?
Will he ever get it right instead of wrong?
Stupid questions to be asking yourself
Stupid way to victimize yourself in such a dreadful manner
One week gone, you're all alone
And your brain starts to bounce its electrical waves
Life is ahead
Death is so
Which one will I gain first?
I never will know
8th Wonder
Some said to me
You can never tell
What life will ever bring to you
“How goes it?” – “Well!”
My heart beats on
For you
Everyday
I think of you
Everyday
There is not a day
I do not think of you, neigh
But truth to be told
That you are not here
The shadow that I miss
My right hand, my eyes, my ears
You are like a ghost
To me
Your soul, your hope
Always seems to be there for me
But it is the sight of you
That I miss
The one true white rose
Who, in my dreams, only lives
Your presence
Your care
Your sense of elegance
Your smile, your glare
You are like the Rainbow
Only a million colors more
You are like Snow White
But without the Seven Dwarfs
You are something
Indescribable to me
You are the eighth wonder of this worldYou are the tree of eternity
You can never tell
What life will ever bring to you
“How goes it?” – “Well!”
My heart beats on
For you
Everyday
I think of you
Everyday
There is not a day
I do not think of you, neigh
But truth to be told
That you are not here
The shadow that I miss
My right hand, my eyes, my ears
You are like a ghost
To me
Your soul, your hope
Always seems to be there for me
But it is the sight of you
That I miss
The one true white rose
Who, in my dreams, only lives
Your presence
Your care
Your sense of elegance
Your smile, your glare
You are like the Rainbow
Only a million colors more
You are like Snow White
But without the Seven Dwarfs
You are something
Indescribable to me
You are the eighth wonder of this worldYou are the tree of eternity
H Y S T E R I A - Part Two: Death In The Eyes of Love
She lights the fire.
She cries in pain.
She dries her tears.
She’s going insane.
She lived in peace.
When she was with him.
Now she has the creeps.
Because she’s lost him.
She walks around the neighbourhood.
Half-naked.
Draw’s up to a school.
And makes a fool of herself.
She strolls in the hall.
Crying out for him.
Thinking if she’d call.
He’d answer it.
Yacking the children.
Out of the way.
While they fall on the ground.
And cry in pain.
Teachers come out.
To see what’s wrong.
She start’s to fool about.
By singing this song.
“My dear.
Has come to me!
I’ll live with him.
Endlessly!”
She tries to protect herslef.
From the Police.
But all she did was kill herself.
When they shot her to maintain peace
She cries in pain.
She dries her tears.
She’s going insane.
She lived in peace.
When she was with him.
Now she has the creeps.
Because she’s lost him.
She walks around the neighbourhood.
Half-naked.
Draw’s up to a school.
And makes a fool of herself.
She strolls in the hall.
Crying out for him.
Thinking if she’d call.
He’d answer it.
Yacking the children.
Out of the way.
While they fall on the ground.
And cry in pain.
Teachers come out.
To see what’s wrong.
She start’s to fool about.
By singing this song.
“My dear.
Has come to me!
I’ll live with him.
Endlessly!”
She tries to protect herslef.
From the Police.
But all she did was kill herself.
When they shot her to maintain peace
H Y S T E R I A - Part One
He wakes up
In the middle of the night.
Screamin’ about.
Giving everyone a fright.
He’s asleep.
Not awake.
But with one difference.
There’s the pain.
His mum comes.
To hold him near.
But all he does.
Is fume out in screams.
His dad’s in.
Clutches him firmly.
It’s no good.
He keeps yelling; “Let me!”
Throws the flower vase.
At the window.
They just can’t understand.
His raging soul.
He takes the chair.
And hits his mother.
She feels so much pain.
How will she ever recover?
Then the boy.
Throws himself out.
All is done.
No evidence is left about
In the middle of the night.
Screamin’ about.
Giving everyone a fright.
He’s asleep.
Not awake.
But with one difference.
There’s the pain.
His mum comes.
To hold him near.
But all he does.
Is fume out in screams.
His dad’s in.
Clutches him firmly.
It’s no good.
He keeps yelling; “Let me!”
Throws the flower vase.
At the window.
They just can’t understand.
His raging soul.
He takes the chair.
And hits his mother.
She feels so much pain.
How will she ever recover?
Then the boy.
Throws himself out.
All is done.
No evidence is left about
Amy
The beating of my heart
A gorgeous scent
The feeling of you
That just expands
Too long it has been
Too long without you
Too long, Tulips
Violet, blue
Amy…
You are the sun that shines over my soul
You are the breath I need to breathe in when I am running low
You are the guide I run to
I hide beneath from the dark evil glare
Of this world
I've been walking alone down this road to nowhere
Where life meets light
And where chances look at you in the eyes causing them to go red from the glare
Night is the curtain
When I have no blanket upon me
When time is in flight
And my dreams haunt me
Tell me
When will it all stop?
I just to see you before……Before I drop
A gorgeous scent
The feeling of you
That just expands
Too long it has been
Too long without you
Too long, Tulips
Violet, blue
Amy…
You are the sun that shines over my soul
You are the breath I need to breathe in when I am running low
You are the guide I run to
I hide beneath from the dark evil glare
Of this world
I've been walking alone down this road to nowhere
Where life meets light
And where chances look at you in the eyes causing them to go red from the glare
Night is the curtain
When I have no blanket upon me
When time is in flight
And my dreams haunt me
Tell me
When will it all stop?
I just to see you before……Before I drop
Blue Ribbon Beauty - Part Two: The Coffeeshop - Again
She would see him everyday at the same coffee shop
Your brown eyes are always sad
It is why, that I would like to understand
You always sit on your own
Always alone
Sometimes with your friends
Sometimes just your phone
I would like to come up to you and smile
But I am afraid to give it away that it is you, I like
I sit behind you everytime I am there
Listening in to everything you say and do
Wishing you would crack up a joke of yours
Or just do the cute things you would do
He notices her; he wishes she would approach him
Smile
Perhaps even a gesture
But he's depressed already because she ignores him
Bad luck is just his life
Can't really call it that – it's just a matter of pressure
The growing pains of time
It seems such a surprise to see you here
With your great eyes and smiling face
It seems like a nice gesture from fate
To put us here in this position, this place
Night upon night, I think of you
This is the story of my heart, uneventful, yet, true
'til this night is through
I am always thinking of you
Why is it you smile the way you do?
Why is it, your heart, my soul falls to?
Why do I feel like I need to talk to you?
Why is it, this way, we are neighbors to the moon?
And after a few days
A few nights
A few years apart they catch each other's eye
They think of the years and why
Why they ever passed the chance to get close to each other
Why ever think about it for another moment
Why they put themselves in that long tunnel
Why they came out of it as if nothing had happened
And now that life is giving them a second chance
Now that what was past is past
Would they take that chance?
Would they finally understand?
Would you like to sit down and have a chat?
I would like to but I …
Can't…?
Don't get me wrong
It's not that I don't want to
I would love to sit and have a chat with you
But in front of people – I can't – and that's the truth
It's tough as it is trying to find the right person
Than it is to find them and not be to have a conversation with them
Did you know that it's your brown eyes I dream of every night?
Did you know that I try to listen to the wind that blows on the trees wishing it would whisper your name?
Did you know that everytime I see you, my heart misses a beat?
Did you know that when you leave the coffee shop, I would wish for more chances for us to meet?
A tear down the eyes
Slip from depression into life
Share impossible feelings before you're told that you've wasted your time
Thoughts roam and rhyme
Do you know that I think about you everyday?
That it is your smile I daydream about when I stare away?
Lips sealed. Shut
Feelings within, hurt
The definition of life is taken away
When the reason behind it, is so close, yet so far away
Walking away
She tries not to look back
To see him cry silently
Where he would retreat to the dark
I wish I could tell you how much I like you
I wish I could
I wish I could hold your hand
Make you understand
That this situation at hand
Is the reason behind our falling
Our hearts calling
Senses, for some time, frozen
The probability of us ever getting together, is through
I can't forget about you
Even if I wanted to
Even if you asked me to
There's nothing, about it, that I can do
The warmth, the feeling – the passion within
The darkness, the cold – that overwhelms us, to win
Can I at least see you here another time?
Can I at least keep the hope of us to meet for our hearts to intertwine?
Now staring at a glass window
I swear, that's a smile, I see
Won't you say yes for me?
Yes
His heart flew
Yes, I would
His heart soared
Yes, I would love to
He could shout out joy to the world
Turning her head, with a tear still in her eye
He moved over to her and gave her a tissue
To me you are my life
I don't know what I would do without you
With that, she smiled
I wish I could kiss you right now
Your brown eyes are always sad
It is why, that I would like to understand
You always sit on your own
Always alone
Sometimes with your friends
Sometimes just your phone
I would like to come up to you and smile
But I am afraid to give it away that it is you, I like
I sit behind you everytime I am there
Listening in to everything you say and do
Wishing you would crack up a joke of yours
Or just do the cute things you would do
He notices her; he wishes she would approach him
Smile
Perhaps even a gesture
But he's depressed already because she ignores him
Bad luck is just his life
Can't really call it that – it's just a matter of pressure
The growing pains of time
It seems such a surprise to see you here
With your great eyes and smiling face
It seems like a nice gesture from fate
To put us here in this position, this place
Night upon night, I think of you
This is the story of my heart, uneventful, yet, true
'til this night is through
I am always thinking of you
Why is it you smile the way you do?
Why is it, your heart, my soul falls to?
Why do I feel like I need to talk to you?
Why is it, this way, we are neighbors to the moon?
And after a few days
A few nights
A few years apart they catch each other's eye
They think of the years and why
Why they ever passed the chance to get close to each other
Why ever think about it for another moment
Why they put themselves in that long tunnel
Why they came out of it as if nothing had happened
And now that life is giving them a second chance
Now that what was past is past
Would they take that chance?
Would they finally understand?
Would you like to sit down and have a chat?
I would like to but I …
Can't…?
Don't get me wrong
It's not that I don't want to
I would love to sit and have a chat with you
But in front of people – I can't – and that's the truth
It's tough as it is trying to find the right person
Than it is to find them and not be to have a conversation with them
Did you know that it's your brown eyes I dream of every night?
Did you know that I try to listen to the wind that blows on the trees wishing it would whisper your name?
Did you know that everytime I see you, my heart misses a beat?
Did you know that when you leave the coffee shop, I would wish for more chances for us to meet?
A tear down the eyes
Slip from depression into life
Share impossible feelings before you're told that you've wasted your time
Thoughts roam and rhyme
Do you know that I think about you everyday?
That it is your smile I daydream about when I stare away?
Lips sealed. Shut
Feelings within, hurt
The definition of life is taken away
When the reason behind it, is so close, yet so far away
Walking away
She tries not to look back
To see him cry silently
Where he would retreat to the dark
I wish I could tell you how much I like you
I wish I could
I wish I could hold your hand
Make you understand
That this situation at hand
Is the reason behind our falling
Our hearts calling
Senses, for some time, frozen
The probability of us ever getting together, is through
I can't forget about you
Even if I wanted to
Even if you asked me to
There's nothing, about it, that I can do
The warmth, the feeling – the passion within
The darkness, the cold – that overwhelms us, to win
Can I at least see you here another time?
Can I at least keep the hope of us to meet for our hearts to intertwine?
Now staring at a glass window
I swear, that's a smile, I see
Won't you say yes for me?
Yes
His heart flew
Yes, I would
His heart soared
Yes, I would love to
He could shout out joy to the world
Turning her head, with a tear still in her eye
He moved over to her and gave her a tissue
To me you are my life
I don't know what I would do without you
With that, she smiled
I wish I could kiss you right now
Blue Ribbon Beauty - Part One
We smiled
We just kept on smiling
Her eyes into mine
Our lives were connected
‘Hi’
‘Hi’
We stood there. We didn’t talk
We couldn’t speak. We couldn’t breathe. We just had to fall
‘Can I buy you a coffee?’
‘Maybe a drink?’
Anything to make you happy
Anything to make you stay with me
My life is embodied by the jewels that are around me
Your eyes; your lips; the elegance that surrounds me
‘If I could be this night’
‘I would ask to stay forever like this’
‘Why is that?’
‘So I can always remember you like this’
She just stood there and smiled
Her eyes gleamed like an innocent child
‘Would you like to sit down and have a chat?’
‘Maybe a better chance for us to know each other, to get to understand’
She was like a wildflower
Blooming, while she gazed
My heart was racing
Unstoppable, at this stage
Blue ribbon, on her hair
You’d think I was nuts
But I assure you
I have seen her before. Where and how? And why was I unaware?
Life beyond life
Beauty beyond compare
This night
This passion flare
Looking at her
‘You’re late’
She looked at me suddenly, worryingly
‘What took you so long to come into my life? Today?’
I only wish
I had seen you before
I have only dreamed of this moment
For a night, with you, to hit into my heart – the centre of my love, the core
Her cheeks blushed
She stared into the floor
She was smiling deeply
Yet she could not hide it at all
She flapped her hair over her ear
That is beauty
That is beauty
To me
I wish I could have said to her
That day
How could I let her go?
‘I have to go now; maybe we’ll meet some other day’
As she got up heading for the door
She turned around, smiled back at me, but unaware
That as she headed out
Something had fallen off of her, but I think she did it on purpose to show how much she cared
Getting up to reach it
Before it fell to the floor
She left, but the image of her, in my heart, it will always be
I pray that I will know her, one day more
As I knew I had another chance
Because of the blue ribbon within my hands
We just kept on smiling
Her eyes into mine
Our lives were connected
‘Hi’
‘Hi’
We stood there. We didn’t talk
We couldn’t speak. We couldn’t breathe. We just had to fall
‘Can I buy you a coffee?’
‘Maybe a drink?’
Anything to make you happy
Anything to make you stay with me
My life is embodied by the jewels that are around me
Your eyes; your lips; the elegance that surrounds me
‘If I could be this night’
‘I would ask to stay forever like this’
‘Why is that?’
‘So I can always remember you like this’
She just stood there and smiled
Her eyes gleamed like an innocent child
‘Would you like to sit down and have a chat?’
‘Maybe a better chance for us to know each other, to get to understand’
She was like a wildflower
Blooming, while she gazed
My heart was racing
Unstoppable, at this stage
Blue ribbon, on her hair
You’d think I was nuts
But I assure you
I have seen her before. Where and how? And why was I unaware?
Life beyond life
Beauty beyond compare
This night
This passion flare
Looking at her
‘You’re late’
She looked at me suddenly, worryingly
‘What took you so long to come into my life? Today?’
I only wish
I had seen you before
I have only dreamed of this moment
For a night, with you, to hit into my heart – the centre of my love, the core
Her cheeks blushed
She stared into the floor
She was smiling deeply
Yet she could not hide it at all
She flapped her hair over her ear
That is beauty
That is beauty
To me
I wish I could have said to her
That day
How could I let her go?
‘I have to go now; maybe we’ll meet some other day’
As she got up heading for the door
She turned around, smiled back at me, but unaware
That as she headed out
Something had fallen off of her, but I think she did it on purpose to show how much she cared
Getting up to reach it
Before it fell to the floor
She left, but the image of her, in my heart, it will always be
I pray that I will know her, one day more
As I knew I had another chance
Because of the blue ribbon within my hands
A Never-Ending Quest For A Dream To Be - Part Three
A never-ending quest
For a dream to be
For fire to be fire
And dreams to be believed
You think of the love
That was once portrayed
You thought of it then
You think of it again
Touched in the heart
Touched in the soul
Come to think of it
Your heart is not yours
Lost in the clouds
Of hope, and gaze
Don’t turn to me
You’ll lose your sane
For thought and dreams
Are rendered in time
Once you believe
You would have found out, it was a lie
For a dream to be
For fire to be fire
And dreams to be believed
You think of the love
That was once portrayed
You thought of it then
You think of it again
Touched in the heart
Touched in the soul
Come to think of it
Your heart is not yours
Lost in the clouds
Of hope, and gaze
Don’t turn to me
You’ll lose your sane
For thought and dreams
Are rendered in time
Once you believe
You would have found out, it was a lie
A Never-Ending Quest For A Dream To Be - Part Two
Dreams
Are dreams
That’s how they’ll always be
But reality
Is a fantasy
That you have to reach
Reaching the possibility
To a certain difference in your life
Like the difference
That is between life and death; it is only gained in time
If you live today
You’ll die tomorrow
If not physically
Then you’ll feel strangled in sorrow
Sorrow is a sea
A tangled sea
A sea so black, that you can’t see your reflection off of it
But only
If you believe
That you can do it, will you pull yourself, and rise up
But that too
Is a dream
A dream which you need to wake up to
So you can believe
Let the sun shine in from the east
And the moon from the west
But one day, you’ll know
Your heart will have found it’s quest
Are dreams
That’s how they’ll always be
But reality
Is a fantasy
That you have to reach
Reaching the possibility
To a certain difference in your life
Like the difference
That is between life and death; it is only gained in time
If you live today
You’ll die tomorrow
If not physically
Then you’ll feel strangled in sorrow
Sorrow is a sea
A tangled sea
A sea so black, that you can’t see your reflection off of it
But only
If you believe
That you can do it, will you pull yourself, and rise up
But that too
Is a dream
A dream which you need to wake up to
So you can believe
Let the sun shine in from the east
And the moon from the west
But one day, you’ll know
Your heart will have found it’s quest
A Never-Ending Quest For A Dream To Be - Part One
Walk through the valley
Of love and thoughts
Walk back
And you’ll be lost in your hope
Follow the stream
Of a never-ending dream
Where springs are springs
And life is yet to be achieved
Watch the clouds
Of wonder and quest
Tackle through
To a certain depth
The depth of love, life, and nobility
The arise of the moon, the wind, the sea
But if for a reason
An obstacle offends
Find out the truth
To reach your end
The sun will rise one day
From the west
But a white rose is just
A never-ending quest
Of love and thoughts
Walk back
And you’ll be lost in your hope
Follow the stream
Of a never-ending dream
Where springs are springs
And life is yet to be achieved
Watch the clouds
Of wonder and quest
Tackle through
To a certain depth
The depth of love, life, and nobility
The arise of the moon, the wind, the sea
But if for a reason
An obstacle offends
Find out the truth
To reach your end
The sun will rise one day
From the west
But a white rose is just
A never-ending quest
A Blind Man's Dream - Part Three: The Fantasy
… A kiss
“Why?”
“Why is moonlight so bright?”
“But I hardly even know you”
“Even though I care enough to show you”
“I love you”
“From all my heart”
“You are that simple wish I wished”
“You are the spark in my heart”
A hand on mine
Her eyes looking into mine
A favor from God
A wish fulfilled from up above
A walk on the beach
On the shore
Our faces in the winter’s breeze
As the waves roar
Rosy cheeks
Brown eyes inglued
I am obsessed
Solely in love with you
“How can you trust someone you hardly know?”
“If only you knew how my heart pulsates increasingly, when you show”
“But are you not afraid?”
“Of what?”
“If I was someone you wouldn’t…”
“… Want?”
Eyes down
In shame
How could I think of such a question?
How? In God’s name!
Here she is
Standing before me
Standing
So elegantly
“Why are YOU afraid?”
“Why do YOU push back?”
“I fear of taking the past ways again”
“I fear of having no one, this time, to break my land”
I grow weary of my pain
I am imprisoned in the darkness
Held against my will
In this obscurity, do I tilt
Do I hurt in vain
“Would you hurt me?”
“Would you love me?”
“Would you tear my heart apart down the line?”
“Would you stay with me?”
“Would you betray me?”
“Would you I still be, in years to come, on your mind?”
“I feel like I have known you all my life”
“As if God made you for me”
“I want to be with you all the time”
“Even to see you in my dreams”
There goes destiny
Down the line
Where darkness is obsessed with the thought
Of eternal night
“My valentine had left me”
“A long time ago”
“I used to think that she was the one for me”
“Until she told me our relationship was no more”
Stop not, my heart
From beating for this soul
For you are my guide
You are my light
You are the one I turn to, when I am alone
“I wonder how that light shines off of your eyes?”
“I wonder, is it the Moon and the Sun, that, inside there, lie?”
“I couldn’t care if I was the sunshine or the rain”
“I couldn’t care if I had all the happiness in the world, to gain”
“I couldn’t care less if life was without you”
“The beauty that never sleeps. The harness it breaks. The only one moment of truth”
Moonlight, upon the clouds
Strikes abound, without a sound
Thoughts roam
Here and there
Where do we go from here?
Now that are our paths are unclear?
“I wish I could say to you all the things I wanted to say”
“But, the problem is that you are in my imagination. You are not real. You are just my dream”
“Never here to stay”
“Imagine the things that you want to say to me”
“Define them into emotions”
“I am here, if you want me. Just say”
Another bridge
Across the land
How do I continue on?
Without a helping hand?
“You are the wind to me”
“That steers my ship”
“Even though you are not here”
“I wish you could have been”
Another star in the distance
Fading in the sky, from waiting too long
Another feeling inside dying
From burning on and on
Another tear
Across the face
Another heart
Misplaced
Another time?
Another way?
I wouldn’t know
Only God would; come what may
I looked into the darkness
All around me
I saw her figure
Right in front of me
“Why are you still here?”
“I am your hope”
“But I don’t believe in it…”
“… Anymore? Yes, I know”
I couldn’t ask for anything else
My heart beats on. My will thrives. My patience being in test.
“Why?”
“Why is moonlight so bright?”
“But I hardly even know you”
“Even though I care enough to show you”
“I love you”
“From all my heart”
“You are that simple wish I wished”
“You are the spark in my heart”
A hand on mine
Her eyes looking into mine
A favor from God
A wish fulfilled from up above
A walk on the beach
On the shore
Our faces in the winter’s breeze
As the waves roar
Rosy cheeks
Brown eyes inglued
I am obsessed
Solely in love with you
“How can you trust someone you hardly know?”
“If only you knew how my heart pulsates increasingly, when you show”
“But are you not afraid?”
“Of what?”
“If I was someone you wouldn’t…”
“… Want?”
Eyes down
In shame
How could I think of such a question?
How? In God’s name!
Here she is
Standing before me
Standing
So elegantly
“Why are YOU afraid?”
“Why do YOU push back?”
“I fear of taking the past ways again”
“I fear of having no one, this time, to break my land”
I grow weary of my pain
I am imprisoned in the darkness
Held against my will
In this obscurity, do I tilt
Do I hurt in vain
“Would you hurt me?”
“Would you love me?”
“Would you tear my heart apart down the line?”
“Would you stay with me?”
“Would you betray me?”
“Would you I still be, in years to come, on your mind?”
“I feel like I have known you all my life”
“As if God made you for me”
“I want to be with you all the time”
“Even to see you in my dreams”
There goes destiny
Down the line
Where darkness is obsessed with the thought
Of eternal night
“My valentine had left me”
“A long time ago”
“I used to think that she was the one for me”
“Until she told me our relationship was no more”
Stop not, my heart
From beating for this soul
For you are my guide
You are my light
You are the one I turn to, when I am alone
“I wonder how that light shines off of your eyes?”
“I wonder, is it the Moon and the Sun, that, inside there, lie?”
“I couldn’t care if I was the sunshine or the rain”
“I couldn’t care if I had all the happiness in the world, to gain”
“I couldn’t care less if life was without you”
“The beauty that never sleeps. The harness it breaks. The only one moment of truth”
Moonlight, upon the clouds
Strikes abound, without a sound
Thoughts roam
Here and there
Where do we go from here?
Now that are our paths are unclear?
“I wish I could say to you all the things I wanted to say”
“But, the problem is that you are in my imagination. You are not real. You are just my dream”
“Never here to stay”
“Imagine the things that you want to say to me”
“Define them into emotions”
“I am here, if you want me. Just say”
Another bridge
Across the land
How do I continue on?
Without a helping hand?
“You are the wind to me”
“That steers my ship”
“Even though you are not here”
“I wish you could have been”
Another star in the distance
Fading in the sky, from waiting too long
Another feeling inside dying
From burning on and on
Another tear
Across the face
Another heart
Misplaced
Another time?
Another way?
I wouldn’t know
Only God would; come what may
I looked into the darkness
All around me
I saw her figure
Right in front of me
“Why are you still here?”
“I am your hope”
“But I don’t believe in it…”
“… Anymore? Yes, I know”
I couldn’t ask for anything else
My heart beats on. My will thrives. My patience being in test.
A Blind Man's Dream - Part Two: Love - Mishap Or Preface?
Compare our lives
And the times we shared
Can't we just take it all back?
Can't we take back what we once had?
Wouldn't you want to know?
What I'd like to be?
I want to be your lover
Your spouse. That's if you want me
I believe I will die
In the wind
I believe a lie
Will break your wing
Give me life
Give me my day
Give me the time when I will believe
That I was born with what I have, no chance of give and take
Some take the chance
Of healing a broken heart
By falling in love again
Others
Fall apart
And damage everything around them
"My heart is unplugged"
"Your soul is still young"
"On Valentine's I was alone"
"It doesn't mean you will be alone"
"You being alone"
"Is just a test"
"When you're on your own"
"Give your life a think"
"You will, once again, open your eyes"
"And what is the point, when I don't see what I like?"
I open my eyes
Only to see the darkness
Sound without sight
Eternal darkness without a hope for light
"Your heart is full of passion"
"So do not fail"
"You will find what you've dreamed of"
"But you have to be fair"
I'm still stuck
In a child's land
I don't know what to do
Or where I am
I know
You won't know me by now
The happiness we once had
Has all faded somehow
I only exist in these dreams
Where I am blinded by reality
Blinded by fate
Blinded by the dream of seeing thee
Awake in my own dream…
"He's waking up"
"What do we do?"
"Act as if nothing is wrong"
"Just be cool"
"I missed you"
"I missed you, too"
"How do you feel?"
"Horrible. Entangled with fear"
Her hand
Rubbing my own
A tear down the cheek
Of such sweet charm that I have ever known
She left here
She went away
She thought
That it was okay
She tried to explain
But I wouldn't give her the chance
I wouldn't listen to her excuse
I didn't want to understand
Stabbed in the heart
Cut deep
She leaves me
When I needed her desperately
"You know…"
"…There's no need"
You might as well
Have killed me right there, and then
This is the truth I write
My hand and this pen
Cry again
Cry, cry again
I don't care anymore
Even though I think of you, time and time again
You're a misery
A lot more like a nightmare
You are the slithering disease
That will never let me be
The cry of pain
Of suffering
Where you can't go on anymore
No point in living
Hold my breath
Start to wonder why
Why God ever created Earth in the first place?
Why I was ever given life?
Why did I ever meet you?
What was the cosmic reason behind me meeting you?
"I will live on this way"
"I guess"
"A Creator's invention"
"All messed"
"Don't say that"
"You know that's not the truth"
"There will be a day"
"You'll see with your own two"
If this had been a true dream
I would said to you
You are a flower
To me
You are a star
To me
You are the world
To me
You really are
You see
But no longer, you see
The dreams we built you threw them all into the sea
Jumbled dreams
Crumpled hopes
I am seized by this entity
By my neck, by a rope
No such thing
As hope
In my world
No matter
To what others may say
About love
I am already buried
Beneath the sands of time
Of the trace of women's broken promises
Of giving me a new life
Now that the question is answered
As far that it is considered to me
Why waste my time and yours
By telling this tale again?
No point in life
No point in having a heart
No point in having a soul
No point at all
Whatsoever
If you don't have someone
So sweet
So into you
So in love with you
Who thinks the world of you
Wouldn't know what to do without you
There, I have said it
This is my tale
A blind man in this world of lies
Let the Sun set, now that all has failed…
And the times we shared
Can't we just take it all back?
Can't we take back what we once had?
Wouldn't you want to know?
What I'd like to be?
I want to be your lover
Your spouse. That's if you want me
I believe I will die
In the wind
I believe a lie
Will break your wing
Give me life
Give me my day
Give me the time when I will believe
That I was born with what I have, no chance of give and take
Some take the chance
Of healing a broken heart
By falling in love again
Others
Fall apart
And damage everything around them
"My heart is unplugged"
"Your soul is still young"
"On Valentine's I was alone"
"It doesn't mean you will be alone"
"You being alone"
"Is just a test"
"When you're on your own"
"Give your life a think"
"You will, once again, open your eyes"
"And what is the point, when I don't see what I like?"
I open my eyes
Only to see the darkness
Sound without sight
Eternal darkness without a hope for light
"Your heart is full of passion"
"So do not fail"
"You will find what you've dreamed of"
"But you have to be fair"
I'm still stuck
In a child's land
I don't know what to do
Or where I am
I know
You won't know me by now
The happiness we once had
Has all faded somehow
I only exist in these dreams
Where I am blinded by reality
Blinded by fate
Blinded by the dream of seeing thee
Awake in my own dream…
"He's waking up"
"What do we do?"
"Act as if nothing is wrong"
"Just be cool"
"I missed you"
"I missed you, too"
"How do you feel?"
"Horrible. Entangled with fear"
Her hand
Rubbing my own
A tear down the cheek
Of such sweet charm that I have ever known
She left here
She went away
She thought
That it was okay
She tried to explain
But I wouldn't give her the chance
I wouldn't listen to her excuse
I didn't want to understand
Stabbed in the heart
Cut deep
She leaves me
When I needed her desperately
"You know…"
"…There's no need"
You might as well
Have killed me right there, and then
This is the truth I write
My hand and this pen
Cry again
Cry, cry again
I don't care anymore
Even though I think of you, time and time again
You're a misery
A lot more like a nightmare
You are the slithering disease
That will never let me be
The cry of pain
Of suffering
Where you can't go on anymore
No point in living
Hold my breath
Start to wonder why
Why God ever created Earth in the first place?
Why I was ever given life?
Why did I ever meet you?
What was the cosmic reason behind me meeting you?
"I will live on this way"
"I guess"
"A Creator's invention"
"All messed"
"Don't say that"
"You know that's not the truth"
"There will be a day"
"You'll see with your own two"
If this had been a true dream
I would said to you
You are a flower
To me
You are a star
To me
You are the world
To me
You really are
You see
But no longer, you see
The dreams we built you threw them all into the sea
Jumbled dreams
Crumpled hopes
I am seized by this entity
By my neck, by a rope
No such thing
As hope
In my world
No matter
To what others may say
About love
I am already buried
Beneath the sands of time
Of the trace of women's broken promises
Of giving me a new life
Now that the question is answered
As far that it is considered to me
Why waste my time and yours
By telling this tale again?
No point in life
No point in having a heart
No point in having a soul
No point at all
Whatsoever
If you don't have someone
So sweet
So into you
So in love with you
Who thinks the world of you
Wouldn't know what to do without you
There, I have said it
This is my tale
A blind man in this world of lies
Let the Sun set, now that all has failed…
A Blind Man's Dream - Part One
He fell into a coma
Into a long sleep
Not knowing where he is
Or where he would be
“Where am I?”
“You are where you are supposed to be”
“And where is that?”
“The land of the loved, the lost – the land of eternity”
“Will he ever wake up?”
“It is hard to tell”
Trapped inside.
Cocooned. Shelled.
“Search your heart; what do you seek?”
“I seek a woman who will love me for me”
“Is it not a lost cause?”
“Why would it be so?”
“Look to where it has gotten you to, to where you are lost…”
“’Tis true”
Simple features
Of a hand
Difficult things
To comprehend
Life calls up
On what it seems
Like examinations
On a military playfield
Princess
Princess
Of my dreams
How are you?
Where are you?
And how do you sleep?
I miss you
In my arms
I need you
To clear away the harm
“It is better to have loved and lost”
“Than to never have loved at all”
Rivers of passion
Fields of grey
Has doomsday come?
Because there is no soul in my place
“Why can’t I move?”
“You are paralyzed by reality”
“Which would be…?”
“Strength. Honor. Nobility”
“Would he live long like this?”
“It is hard to say”
“Give us a guess”
“Cases like this are dismissed, most probably, by the end of the day”
“Is there nothing we can do?”
“Hope and pray”
Terror. Grief.
Come what may.
The sunset in my eyes
The stars of delight
Where the moon may shine on your face
My first ‘love at first sight’
Hand in hand
Fingers tight
Together we would be
‘Til the day either of us dies
“Should I scream?”
“You cannot”
“Should I try to run?”
“You cannot”
“Should I hide from someone?”
“Even if you tried, you cannot”
“Then what must I do?”
“The dreams you hold in your hands. The reality on which you cannot come to comprehend. They tell you lies. You – should find... the truth”
In the quest for love, hope, and fame
The reality of which I play is just a game
The beach. The moon.
The sky. The stars.
The truth, of which I am so eager to live for
It is not even beyond me – it is just too far
What I ask for
Is more than the truth, it is a heart
The heart of a woman
Who will love at first spark
What, how, when, or why
This is the truth that stands in face of all the lies
Injured inside
Hurt below
Life just keeps on playing with you
Just like a casino ball
In the end of all this
No accomplishment is made
Just look
At the price you have paid
---------
“Princess
Princess
Of my dreams
I have failed you
I have fallen
I have been deceived
Forgive me
For I am not worthy of your heart
Nor of the truth
That lies within our hearts
The enemy is upon me
The barracks are in the rear
There is not much hope for us – me
My death approaches me – it is near
I ask that you
May carry on with your life
And not sulk
On the whens and whys
My heart is yours
For the taking
I love you more
Even after they my soul, take me
Live and let die
Only the honor will vanish into the clouds up into the skies
But in my heart
I will always have this dream
A dream
Of having to spend eternity with thee
I love you
For you are not a flower
I love you
For you are not a cloud
I love you
For you are not the rain
I love you
For you are forever to me…”
Into a long sleep
Not knowing where he is
Or where he would be
“Where am I?”
“You are where you are supposed to be”
“And where is that?”
“The land of the loved, the lost – the land of eternity”
“Will he ever wake up?”
“It is hard to tell”
Trapped inside.
Cocooned. Shelled.
“Search your heart; what do you seek?”
“I seek a woman who will love me for me”
“Is it not a lost cause?”
“Why would it be so?”
“Look to where it has gotten you to, to where you are lost…”
“’Tis true”
Simple features
Of a hand
Difficult things
To comprehend
Life calls up
On what it seems
Like examinations
On a military playfield
Princess
Princess
Of my dreams
How are you?
Where are you?
And how do you sleep?
I miss you
In my arms
I need you
To clear away the harm
“It is better to have loved and lost”
“Than to never have loved at all”
Rivers of passion
Fields of grey
Has doomsday come?
Because there is no soul in my place
“Why can’t I move?”
“You are paralyzed by reality”
“Which would be…?”
“Strength. Honor. Nobility”
“Would he live long like this?”
“It is hard to say”
“Give us a guess”
“Cases like this are dismissed, most probably, by the end of the day”
“Is there nothing we can do?”
“Hope and pray”
Terror. Grief.
Come what may.
The sunset in my eyes
The stars of delight
Where the moon may shine on your face
My first ‘love at first sight’
Hand in hand
Fingers tight
Together we would be
‘Til the day either of us dies
“Should I scream?”
“You cannot”
“Should I try to run?”
“You cannot”
“Should I hide from someone?”
“Even if you tried, you cannot”
“Then what must I do?”
“The dreams you hold in your hands. The reality on which you cannot come to comprehend. They tell you lies. You – should find... the truth”
In the quest for love, hope, and fame
The reality of which I play is just a game
The beach. The moon.
The sky. The stars.
The truth, of which I am so eager to live for
It is not even beyond me – it is just too far
What I ask for
Is more than the truth, it is a heart
The heart of a woman
Who will love at first spark
What, how, when, or why
This is the truth that stands in face of all the lies
Injured inside
Hurt below
Life just keeps on playing with you
Just like a casino ball
In the end of all this
No accomplishment is made
Just look
At the price you have paid
---------
“Princess
Princess
Of my dreams
I have failed you
I have fallen
I have been deceived
Forgive me
For I am not worthy of your heart
Nor of the truth
That lies within our hearts
The enemy is upon me
The barracks are in the rear
There is not much hope for us – me
My death approaches me – it is near
I ask that you
May carry on with your life
And not sulk
On the whens and whys
My heart is yours
For the taking
I love you more
Even after they my soul, take me
Live and let die
Only the honor will vanish into the clouds up into the skies
But in my heart
I will always have this dream
A dream
Of having to spend eternity with thee
I love you
For you are not a flower
I love you
For you are not a cloud
I love you
For you are not the rain
I love you
For you are forever to me…”
Simple And Free
Why can't everything be simple and free?
Isn't that how life's meant to be?
You're one step away from the edge
Life is but a moment - but have you thought of the end?
The road is so clear
But no is there to take your hand
Is there really no one in this world
Who will help you understand?
Turn in your life's secrets
Turn in your fear
Turn in your heart
And you'll be stabbed with a spear
Contemplation of the mind
Into life
Silly of me to think
That life is a simple ride
Isn't that how life's meant to be?
You're one step away from the edge
Life is but a moment - but have you thought of the end?
The road is so clear
But no is there to take your hand
Is there really no one in this world
Who will help you understand?
Turn in your life's secrets
Turn in your fear
Turn in your heart
And you'll be stabbed with a spear
Contemplation of the mind
Into life
Silly of me to think
That life is a simple ride
Something
Something clutches at my heart
Something is holding on so hard
I try to breath
I try to stay afloat
The water just keeps pulling me in
I hold out my hand, I try to reach
Someone to put out their hand, to help me speak
I can't swim, the current's pulling me in
A storm is brewing
Life is a long story, not short
Time in
Time out
Time for me?
I will never know, will I now?
Across the shore
I breathe to stay alive
I spit out
The sands of time
I look up
I see the sun shine
Is it really
For me, a new time?
Something is holding on so hard
I try to breath
I try to stay afloat
The water just keeps pulling me in
I hold out my hand, I try to reach
Someone to put out their hand, to help me speak
I can't swim, the current's pulling me in
A storm is brewing
Life is a long story, not short
Time in
Time out
Time for me?
I will never know, will I now?
Across the shore
I breathe to stay alive
I spit out
The sands of time
I look up
I see the sun shine
Is it really
For me, a new time?
M O C K E R Y
This island of mockery
Laughs at me
Smiling from face to face
Telling me that life is such a joke if it's not to be taken seriously
Life down the gutter
Hang yourself by a rope
Turn your soul in while you're at it
Simple equations but where would you fit?
Gunshot wound
Pedestrian over run
Baby's dead
A second lightening at the same place, is second to none
I'm tired of hearing pledges
I'm tired of hearing your sorries
The thing with this life
Is the mockery
Mockery stands out
Like a giant with two large hands trying to stop you from getting to three doors
Two of them are blocked and the third has a lion behind it that roars
Life's mockery is such a crying shame
People think it's such a game
Hearts are killed
Souls vanquished
And nothing left but pure pain
If I smile now my face would crack because of my acid tears
Love is nothing but a word to the fools who don't cherish their years
And in time, I could end up like some of them
What's more frightening is that it is more likely to happen
By that time; what would I do then?
This island of mockery
Laughs at me
Smiling from face to face
Telling me that life is such a joke if it's not to be taken seriously
Laughs at me
Smiling from face to face
Telling me that life is such a joke if it's not to be taken seriously
Life down the gutter
Hang yourself by a rope
Turn your soul in while you're at it
Simple equations but where would you fit?
Gunshot wound
Pedestrian over run
Baby's dead
A second lightening at the same place, is second to none
I'm tired of hearing pledges
I'm tired of hearing your sorries
The thing with this life
Is the mockery
Mockery stands out
Like a giant with two large hands trying to stop you from getting to three doors
Two of them are blocked and the third has a lion behind it that roars
Life's mockery is such a crying shame
People think it's such a game
Hearts are killed
Souls vanquished
And nothing left but pure pain
If I smile now my face would crack because of my acid tears
Love is nothing but a word to the fools who don't cherish their years
And in time, I could end up like some of them
What's more frightening is that it is more likely to happen
By that time; what would I do then?
This island of mockery
Laughs at me
Smiling from face to face
Telling me that life is such a joke if it's not to be taken seriously
There Is Hope, Yet, For Us All
Devastation is the word that's popular these days
Simple folk curse and feelings are fake
Hearts are burnt in the chest
From treacheries in relationships which are broken and can never be mended or put to rest
Guns are fired
Souls are killed
Bazookas aimed
Wars waged
All for the satisfaction of man
Why is it that we can't understand
That life is a much bigger meaning to comprehend?
That our children are dying from our simple mistakes?
That we can never have what we always want everyday?
A hand on my shoulder
A tear in my eye
The cold fear I feel
Deep within my heart
Will I see the sunset tomorrow?
I don't know
Will I enjoy the next winter?
I don't know
Will I ever grow old?
I don't know
I can only wish that I would use my mind to become wiser
There is yet hope for us all
Simple folk curse and feelings are fake
Hearts are burnt in the chest
From treacheries in relationships which are broken and can never be mended or put to rest
Guns are fired
Souls are killed
Bazookas aimed
Wars waged
All for the satisfaction of man
Why is it that we can't understand
That life is a much bigger meaning to comprehend?
That our children are dying from our simple mistakes?
That we can never have what we always want everyday?
A hand on my shoulder
A tear in my eye
The cold fear I feel
Deep within my heart
Will I see the sunset tomorrow?
I don't know
Will I enjoy the next winter?
I don't know
Will I ever grow old?
I don't know
I can only wish that I would use my mind to become wiser
There is yet hope for us all
I Wish I Could See You Smile
Standing on an edge
The wind whistles in your ears
You see the people as if they're ants
If they can't feel
Why should they try to understand?
Another step to eternity
Another lively moment to live by
The minutes go by into hours and you think: why?
Desperation: think of a happy moment
A light at the end of the tunnel
Not when you jump off it
And a hand on my shoulder to hear me cry
To wipe the tears from my eyes
To send love flowing through my veins to recreate my life
This all magically disappears
Love will never create fear
If that's the challenge - I'll be right here
Turn the hands of time
Thoughts roam and rhyme
I wish I could see you smile
The wind whistles in your ears
You see the people as if they're ants
If they can't feel
Why should they try to understand?
Another step to eternity
Another lively moment to live by
The minutes go by into hours and you think: why?
Desperation: think of a happy moment
A light at the end of the tunnel
Not when you jump off it
And a hand on my shoulder to hear me cry
To wipe the tears from my eyes
To send love flowing through my veins to recreate my life
This all magically disappears
Love will never create fear
If that's the challenge - I'll be right here
Turn the hands of time
Thoughts roam and rhyme
I wish I could see you smile
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