S U P E R M A N

I'm no superman
I'm a human being
I try to struggle in this life
I try to be me

I'm always told to alive
To stay free
To live the time
But I can't – see?

I have my problems
I have a way of thinking
I have a way in life
I try to look danger in the eye, without blinking

But I'm no superman
Although I try to be
People call me Mr. Pessimistic
But that's just me

I'm no superman
Although I try to be
I try to live to everyone's expectations
But it's as if the nations have called for the beheading of me

I try to be
Who I'm not
I try to see
But I end up wrong

I'm not complaining
I'm telling a story
A story of me
A man with no vision, no future – I'm sorry

If you want a superman
You've come to the wrong man
I'm not that kind of a person
Although I try to be that kind of a man

I could go on like this
Telling you all this crap
But honestly, truly
Why would you want to understand?

My problems are mine
Mine to keep
Mine to drown in
My eyes, they weep

Even if I found a woman, just for me
Would she understand me?
Would she stay with me?
Would she – in time – betray me?

The heavens have once clashed upon my head
And destroyed my every nerve
They told my heart to beat
And to call it 'love'

But even then
I couldn't stand it
I tried to hold it within
But now my mind has banned it

Now that life for me
Is in a late age
It's time for me
To move on again

Maybe I'll stumble once again
Upon another beautiful woman who will understand
That in her eyes
I'll always try to be… a superman

Rose Between The Thorns

I wish I could talk to you more and more
To find out what you are thinking of and to spread you with warmth

I cannot tell a lie
How much I like you
This is my path of life
Would you lie to me, too?

The truth is in the eyes
The truth is in the heart
Burdens touch heart and soul
The never ending search for a rose between the thorns

Personally Speaking

Beyond the flower
The bed of the sea
The beating heart
That beats within me

I wish I could sleep
All I ever think of is you
I wish I could just dream
Of your image, of your love that would shine through

I cannot sleep the night
When you are not here
I cannot think in the daylight
I cannot eat, nor drink, not even smile a happy face

I wish you were here
Even though you broke my heart
Three years ago

I wish I could see you here
Hold you, or die in your arms
But it seems this thought will never let go

You're not the night to me anymore
You're not the sunshine that would shine on my face
You're more like a drug that I need to get off
You're the blistering memory that grinds in my head and makes it ache

Every kiss we ever had
Was a fake
Those two Valentine's we had
All you had wanted was your own way

Now I am here
All alone
Because of you

I am wondering
Fathoming
Pondering, that should I see you, should I shoot you or stab you, or strangle you 'til you choke out last breath in you?

Its too bad I can't post your pic
It would have been wonderful to show the world how beautiful THORNS can be
But I will resist
The time will come when I will find another love for me

Passion into dust
Fire into ash
This memory will never go
And no one will ever understand

HAPPY VALENTINE

My Reality

Life is life
A question left in the heart
Let the mind wonder about it
Let it try to break the ice, for a start

Apples on trees
Too red, too green
My reality is fixed
Upon one dream

One day
You'll pull through the fog
Like a rainbow in the rain

One day
I'll see
Your face

Would you be everything I wanted you to be?
Who knows?
Would you be the way I dreamed about you?
I don't think so

My heart
Is a flying bird
I am tired
I want to get a girl

This poem is intended for those who understand
Those who don't can just go away instead of trying to comprehend

My idea of love
Is first attraction
Develop a friendship
And you have mental satisfaction

Other things
Will come my way
How soon?
I don't know really when, to say

God, I miss being in love

Like A Wildchild

Like a wildchild in the summer haze
Smile upon me and embrace
Your laughter will turn my sadness into happiness and everyone will smile catch it through a phase

Second tulip in the row
The rose next to it will never grow
Unless you smile and let it go
Tomorrow is another day don't let your pain ever show

Rain will come one day
And black clouds will fill up the sky to make more rain
You'll stand outside and get soaked wet - but who cares anyway?

One day you'll go back on these memories one day
And say to yourself, I wish I could do these things again someday
But unfortunately God has taken it all away
Why? You ask? I wouldn't know. And right now, I wouldn't care anyway

But I will say this:
A smile is a smile is a kiss
Gentle and light on my cheek on my lips
A warm hug, an I LOVE YOU
I cherish the life that I will always have with you

My heart is yours
The scent of love is contagious when it’s your eyes I look into
Sun goes down, the Moon arises
But never will there ever be time without you with surprises

Kiss Me Before You Leave

Kiss me before you leave
Rub your hand in my hair
Wash away the gloom in that corner, that glare
Hum to me as if I were a child
Sing to me as if I were to die

Kiss me before I go to sleep
Read to me the story of Romeo and Juliet
Where lovers met because of their desire and created their own fate
Love me there and then
Where happiness is never-ending

Wisk me away with your hands
The softness you hold
The warm heart, the beautiful features, of oh so many, into one mix of you, they mould

Kiss me before I go sleep
Don't deny me of this passion, the sweetest of dreams

Just A Dream, A Wish

It was dark

I could only make out an image of what could have been a figure

I saw the light that it was leading me to
I saw the face behind it, too
I saw your eyes and I was glued
I saw you and I knew that this must be a dream, because I haven't met you

I heard your voice and it was soft
I heard your voice as if a whisper
I heard your voice and I called it love, too soon to hinder
I heard you and I said to myself 'let me not wake up from my dream - ever'

I felt your hand on my face
I felt the warmth of love, which, I wish to embrace
I felt your smile through your hand as it passed on the summer love with all its grace
I felt you and I wished to God that I could feel it all over again

I woke up, suddenly, in my bed
A tear in my eye, a frown on my face, not a smile
I was in hospital tied up with many wires
Blood, agony, and a restless fever in my eyes
I only wish you were here to ease my suffering tonight

Let this Valentine's be new to me
Let the agony be gone and set me free
Let the wind fill me with the strength of your love beneath my feet
Let me stand so I can call out your name, let me see your face again, let me once again feel the love that I am deprived of, please

I love you - whoever you are
I wish you a happy Valentine's and much happiness - where-ever you are

Isn't This What Your Heart Wanted All Along?

Isn't this what your heart wanted?
Isn't this what you wanted all along?
Isn't this the type of Devil you really are?
The one, who, wrecks hearts and homes?

Aren’t you the type to break a man's heart?
And send his tears through the tap?
Aren't you the type to distinguish that spark?
To have it your own way? To make him look like a baby without the decency of giving him the opportunity to understand?

Kill the messenger
Kill the hope
Kill the undying need
Of love in this soul

Kill me
Kill my heart
Kill my hope for a white flower
For a light in the dark

Hang me from a tower
For everyone to see
What the hope of finding love
Has done to me

Search my veins
Search my head
Search my hands
All you'll find are traces of a hope that is dead

Burn me
Burn me
Burn me and this lighting desire

Shoot me
I no longer want to live
With this loneliness that I live everyday, which I silently cry out

May God take my soul
Before I do it myself
May God forgive me
For thinking like this

Happy Valentine's

Is it right for me to see your smile
And not be blessed by it?
Is it right for me to see you pass by there
In the most beautiful form, and not complement it?

Is it right that you should walk on and not know that I am there for you?
Is it right that I would see a red rose and could not give it to you?

Would it be right that you are somewhere so far
That I don't know where you are
That I cannot feel your compassion for the passionate person you are
And still live on with my life as it is?

Is it right that you love someone and you don't know who
That everyday passes by and you gain loneliness and solitude
And pass everyday as if there will be something else new
To happen, like the sight of having to see you?

Is it fair - ever - that you should pass out on the chance
That you should try to flirt with a woman in order to understand
Whether you're a pig, an ass, or purely gentleman

That she would love you for you are
Not because of your appearance and how skinny you are
Or because of the way you hum to every song
And how annoying it is not to get the attention you need while she is on the phone

My heart holds the love we need
My life is a root, water it with love - please?

In The Depths of My Soul

In the depths of my soul
In the relics of my goal
I know not what I should do

I know only that I must get up everytime I fall
I know that everytime my heart breaks that I must laugh not cry
I know that everytime I hold pain in my heart that I would crack and with that, my life would be gone

Life for me is a matter of chances
Like my dreams just a matter of glimpse
Glimpses of my past
Glimpses of my future
And the life I live in the present

Turn out to be my present
Turn out to help me in my future
Kill my past and let me live on

A flower will always be a flower
The weather will always change but I will endower
Sunshine will come out one day and I will laugh like a baby
When I see you, with that smile for me, which you won’t deny me

When?

As the sun dawns over the mountains
Beyond my window
My eyes fight
To open up in front of the screen

I think of my life
I think of the moments that when
My life used to have
A meaning

I turn and gaze
I smile and smile again
I look at my mobile phone
I tip sip off a 7up can and not COKE
And I remind myself it'll all be over soon

When will I see you?
When will stop being alone?
When will the nights stop being so lonesome?
When will phone bills go through the roof once more?
When will I see you?
When will I turn away?
When will the thoughts that I have just turn away?

I have a TV
I have a digital receiver
I have a PC
A hard drive and a printer
I have two game consoles that I don't use
It's the same with my heart and my mind, technically, if only you knew

I have a mind
A wonderous mind
A hand-watch, actually five
What good is time if I can't have you in my life?

I have everything
And nothing
I have the world at my fingertips
But no one to share it with

This must be the reason that God made Eve for Adam
They call me Ghosty, you must be the Phantom

When will I see you?
When will you come my way?
When will you make me stop asking so many questions?
When will you just kiss me and say "it's ok"?

When?
When?
When?

I Would

I would love to see a smile
Just for me
A flirt, a wink
Or maybe, a beautiful woman, calling out for me

I would gladly be knocked out by a guy
If it was his sister, I was flirting
For he has no idea
That it is her soul, which I have been searching

I would love to wake up in a hospital bed
All bruised up, breathless and almost paralyzed
If it meant to
That I would be waking up to her eyes

I would love to walk with you side by side
Eye to eye
Hand in hand

Or if you want
A glass of ice cold Coke
A candle in a darkened room, and two straws – just you and me

All I am trying to say
Is that whatever I do
I would
Love to do it with you

From Woman To Man

A woman
Is a woman
Is a Goddess by my measurements

A man
Is just a man
To her heart and the following revelations

I would like to understand
The how and whys
And then go on to know
That it is you who is resembled all over the sky

Shattered, my heart, will be
From remembering the loss of you, for me
At the mere mention of your name, I cry, I weep
And when I am asked 'Do you still love her?' I hold my breath, silently

Turn the hold that is within my heart
The bridge which I crossed, over the lake, at the park
The love I no longer hold, the emptiness in which my feelings starve
No moonlight, no sunshine, no angle, no hand, no spark

This is a moment I am asked to overcome
This is a time, whereby I am told to walk through and not to run from
Be it in the rain or the blazing sun
I would never forget that 'one'

Just Another Beating Heart

Another flower gone into hiding from the winter breeze
Another sunset gone into the mellow tides underneath my feet

Another feeling of sadness sinking into my depressed soul
Another question in my head; “Where has it all gone?”

You wish the time you have at your hands
Was driven away
By long walks, short calls
Meeting on a date

But you’re all alone
With no one to call your own
No roses, no happy birthdays
No public tea breaks at a cafe

Some call it a longing for romance
But then again: what is romance?

A walk in the park?
Or perhaps on the beach?
My hand in your hand?
Or lovers eyes at gaze across the street?

Put your hand on your beating heart
Tell me what it says
‘Call them’
‘Call them today’

Attraction

As the darkness looms over the sea
As the rhythm beats in my heart, in my soul, as I sleep
I dream of you, dream of me, and dream of us being happy

As the day passes by
As the sun stands-by in the sky
I think of you, I think of me, I think of us, hand-in-hand walking on the beach

Do I do this to torture myself?
Do we live alone in this universe?

Does my heart beat for no one at all?
Are you a ghost, just as I, unknown to the world?

Sunburn in my soul
The thought of meeting you withers in my mind
Tell a story to the child
This is attraction, love, at first sight

Beyond The Questions of The Mind

In a time of death
We all feel sorrow
Where there is no hope
When we feel there’s no tomorrow

In a life we live
Where time passes by
In a relevance to the mind
And the thoughts that drive us nuts by night

Deliver the frustration to the morning
Where we reach the sunrise with a yawning
When we live to grow old and ask why
Why ever this life? Why for God sakes, why?

Why move on to the next day?
Why lose hope and regain it again?
Why go to sleep and dream?
Why live your life when it is not to your please?

Beyond the night
Beyond the stars
Beyond the living soul
Of which our body will part

Beyond the clouds
Beyond the air
Beyond the breath
And the scent of a woman so near yet so far
Beyond the headache of driving your thoughts into a minded brick wall
Beyond the trash, beyond the corruption of the soul
Beyond the concept, beyond our goal

A white flower
Will only bloom for so long
And it will only rain for such a short while
And you’ll only live for a little over 70 years and die
And by the time you’re dead, you’ll think either ‘I’ve done what I’m supposed to have done’ or ‘Why?’

But will you confront yourself with the woman in your life?
Will you find the true heart by the time you are left high and dry?

Questions – more of which controls not the body, but the mind

Wedding Anniversary

Today I saw two pigeons cross their beaks
I remembered you
I saw the clouds in shapes of hearts
And it reminded me of you

You could be here
You could be there
You could be anywhere
But you would be in my heart

I hope that this day, you would cherish
The love I hold for you is plenty
Wishing you endless happiness
On your wedding anniversary

Wild Thing

I'm feeling wild
I'm feeling free
I feel like a child
Set amongst the greens

Come out the sun
Laugh with me
Rivers bursting with laughter
Chase with me my dreams

Under the moon
Under the stars
Under the wild oceans
Of the clouds

Under this skin
Under this brain
Under this heart
Is me, happily insane

I'm feeling wild
I'm feeling free
I feel like a child
Set amongst the greens

I only wish I could give this feeling to you
I only wish I could pass it on to you
But I'm sure
That this feeling of happiness is just as contagious to me as it will be to you

I'm feeling wild
I'm feeling free
I feel like a child
Set amongst the greens

And this is me

You'll See Me

You'll see me walking on a lonely shore
You'll see me walking along under the lights of a lonely street
You'll see me crying an innocent tear because I'm alone
You'll see me; you'll think you're no use for me

What do I say?
What do I do?
What am I to achieve?
If I don't have you?

Cinema's no good
Beaches are no fun
The ride in the car without you
Makes me feel more bored

Who wants sunsets?
Who wants sandy beaches?
Who wants a chocolate cake?
Who wants the rain?
Who wants a night in the winter air?
All I ever wanted is to have you

I know these are just words
And they'll never reach you no matter how much I try
But these are my wishes, my dreams
Why? Because you are my life