August 17, 2004

A Never-Ending Quest For A Dream To Be - Part Two

Dreams
Are dreams
That’s how they’ll always be

But reality
Is a fantasy
That you have to reach

Reaching the possibility
To a certain difference in your life
Like the difference
That is between life and death; it is only gained in time

If you live today
You’ll die tomorrow
If not physically
Then you’ll feel strangled in sorrow

Sorrow is a sea
A tangled sea
A sea so black, that you can’t see your reflection off of it

But only
If you believe
That you can do it, will you pull yourself, and rise up

But that too
Is a dream
A dream which you need to wake up to
So you can believe

Let the sun shine in from the east
And the moon from the west
But one day, you’ll know
Your heart will have found it’s quest

A Never-Ending Quest For A Dream To Be - Part One

Walk through the valley
Of love and thoughts
Walk back
And you’ll be lost in your hope

Follow the stream
Of a never-ending dream
Where springs are springs
And life is yet to be achieved

Watch the clouds
Of wonder and quest
Tackle through
To a certain depth

The depth of love, life, and nobility
The arise of the moon, the wind, the sea

But if for a reason
An obstacle offends
Find out the truth
To reach your end

The sun will rise one day
From the west
But a white rose is just
A never-ending quest

A Blind Man's Dream - Part Three: The Fantasy

… A kiss

“Why?”

“Why is moonlight so bright?”

“But I hardly even know you”
“Even though I care enough to show you”

“I love you”
“From all my heart”
“You are that simple wish I wished”
“You are the spark in my heart”

A hand on mine
Her eyes looking into mine

A favor from God
A wish fulfilled from up above

A walk on the beach
On the shore
Our faces in the winter’s breeze
As the waves roar

Rosy cheeks
Brown eyes inglued
I am obsessed
Solely in love with you

“How can you trust someone you hardly know?”

“If only you knew how my heart pulsates increasingly, when you show”

“But are you not afraid?”

“Of what?”

“If I was someone you wouldn’t…”

“… Want?”

Eyes down
In shame
How could I think of such a question?
How? In God’s name!

Here she is
Standing before me
Standing
So elegantly

“Why are YOU afraid?”
“Why do YOU push back?”

“I fear of taking the past ways again”
“I fear of having no one, this time, to break my land”

I grow weary of my pain
I am imprisoned in the darkness
Held against my will
In this obscurity, do I tilt
Do I hurt in vain

“Would you hurt me?”
“Would you love me?”
“Would you tear my heart apart down the line?”

“Would you stay with me?”
“Would you betray me?”
“Would you I still be, in years to come, on your mind?”

“I feel like I have known you all my life”
“As if God made you for me”
“I want to be with you all the time”
“Even to see you in my dreams”


There goes destiny
Down the line
Where darkness is obsessed with the thought
Of eternal night

“My valentine had left me”
“A long time ago”
“I used to think that she was the one for me”
“Until she told me our relationship was no more”

Stop not, my heart
From beating for this soul
For you are my guide
You are my light
You are the one I turn to, when I am alone

“I wonder how that light shines off of your eyes?”
“I wonder, is it the Moon and the Sun, that, inside there, lie?”

“I couldn’t care if I was the sunshine or the rain”
“I couldn’t care if I had all the happiness in the world, to gain”
“I couldn’t care less if life was without you”
“The beauty that never sleeps. The harness it breaks. The only one moment of truth”

Moonlight, upon the clouds
Strikes abound, without a sound

Thoughts roam
Here and there
Where do we go from here?
Now that are our paths are unclear?

“I wish I could say to you all the things I wanted to say”
“But, the problem is that you are in my imagination. You are not real. You are just my dream”
“Never here to stay”

“Imagine the things that you want to say to me”
“Define them into emotions”
“I am here, if you want me. Just say”

Another bridge
Across the land
How do I continue on?
Without a helping hand?

“You are the wind to me”
“That steers my ship”
“Even though you are not here”
“I wish you could have been”

Another star in the distance
Fading in the sky, from waiting too long
Another feeling inside dying
From burning on and on

Another tear
Across the face
Another heart
Misplaced

Another time?
Another way?
I wouldn’t know
Only God would; come what may

I looked into the darkness
All around me
I saw her figure
Right in front of me

“Why are you still here?”

“I am your hope”

“But I don’t believe in it…”

“… Anymore? Yes, I know”

I couldn’t ask for anything else
My heart beats on. My will thrives. My patience being in test.

A Blind Man's Dream - Part Two: Love - Mishap Or Preface?

Compare our lives
And the times we shared
Can't we just take it all back?
Can't we take back what we once had?
Wouldn't you want to know?
What I'd like to be?
I want to be your lover
Your spouse. That's if you want me

I believe I will die
In the wind
I believe a lie
Will break your wing

Give me life
Give me my day
Give me the time when I will believe
That I was born with what I have, no chance of give and take

Some take the chance
Of healing a broken heart
By falling in love again

Others
Fall apart
And damage everything around them

"My heart is unplugged"

"Your soul is still young"

"On Valentine's I was alone"

"It doesn't mean you will be alone"

"You being alone"
"Is just a test"
"When you're on your own"
"Give your life a think"

"You will, once again, open your eyes"

"And what is the point, when I don't see what I like?"

I open my eyes
Only to see the darkness
Sound without sight
Eternal darkness without a hope for light

"Your heart is full of passion"
"So do not fail"
"You will find what you've dreamed of"
"But you have to be fair"

I'm still stuck
In a child's land
I don't know what to do
Or where I am

I know
You won't know me by now
The happiness we once had
Has all faded somehow

I only exist in these dreams
Where I am blinded by reality
Blinded by fate
Blinded by the dream of seeing thee

Awake in my own dream…

"He's waking up"
"What do we do?"
"Act as if nothing is wrong"
"Just be cool"

"I missed you"

"I missed you, too"

"How do you feel?"

"Horrible. Entangled with fear"

Her hand
Rubbing my own
A tear down the cheek
Of such sweet charm that I have ever known

She left here
She went away
She thought
That it was okay

She tried to explain
But I wouldn't give her the chance
I wouldn't listen to her excuse
I didn't want to understand

Stabbed in the heart
Cut deep
She leaves me
When I needed her desperately

"You know…"

"…There's no need"

You might as well
Have killed me right there, and then
This is the truth I write
My hand and this pen

Cry again
Cry, cry again
I don't care anymore
Even though I think of you, time and time again

You're a misery
A lot more like a nightmare
You are the slithering disease
That will never let me be

The cry of pain
Of suffering
Where you can't go on anymore
No point in living

Hold my breath
Start to wonder why
Why God ever created Earth in the first place?
Why I was ever given life?

Why did I ever meet you?
What was the cosmic reason behind me meeting you?

"I will live on this way"
"I guess"
"A Creator's invention"
"All messed"

"Don't say that"
"You know that's not the truth"
"There will be a day"
"You'll see with your own two"

If this had been a true dream
I would said to you
You are a flower
To me
You are a star
To me
You are the world
To me
You really are
You see
But no longer, you see
The dreams we built you threw them all into the sea

Jumbled dreams
Crumpled hopes
I am seized by this entity
By my neck, by a rope

No such thing
As hope
In my world

No matter
To what others may say
About love

I am already buried
Beneath the sands of time
Of the trace of women's broken promises
Of giving me a new life

Now that the question is answered
As far that it is considered to me
Why waste my time and yours
By telling this tale again?

No point in life
No point in having a heart
No point in having a soul
No point at all
Whatsoever
If you don't have someone
So sweet
So into you
So in love with you
Who thinks the world of you
Wouldn't know what to do without you

There, I have said it
This is my tale
A blind man in this world of lies
Let the Sun set, now that all has failed…

A Blind Man's Dream - Part One

He fell into a coma
Into a long sleep
Not knowing where he is
Or where he would be

“Where am I?”
“You are where you are supposed to be”
“And where is that?”
“The land of the loved, the lost – the land of eternity”

“Will he ever wake up?”
“It is hard to tell”
Trapped inside.
Cocooned. Shelled.

“Search your heart; what do you seek?”
“I seek a woman who will love me for me”

“Is it not a lost cause?”
“Why would it be so?”
“Look to where it has gotten you to, to where you are lost…”
“’Tis true”

Simple features
Of a hand
Difficult things
To comprehend

Life calls up
On what it seems
Like examinations
On a military playfield

Princess
Princess
Of my dreams

How are you?
Where are you?
And how do you sleep?

I miss you
In my arms
I need you
To clear away the harm

“It is better to have loved and lost”
“Than to never have loved at all”

Rivers of passion
Fields of grey
Has doomsday come?
Because there is no soul in my place

“Why can’t I move?”
“You are paralyzed by reality”
“Which would be…?”
“Strength. Honor. Nobility”

“Would he live long like this?”
“It is hard to say”
“Give us a guess”
“Cases like this are dismissed, most probably, by the end of the day”

“Is there nothing we can do?”
“Hope and pray”
Terror. Grief.
Come what may.

The sunset in my eyes
The stars of delight
Where the moon may shine on your face
My first ‘love at first sight’

Hand in hand
Fingers tight
Together we would be
‘Til the day either of us dies

“Should I scream?”
“You cannot”
“Should I try to run?”
“You cannot”
“Should I hide from someone?”
“Even if you tried, you cannot”
“Then what must I do?”
“The dreams you hold in your hands. The reality on which you cannot come to comprehend. They tell you lies. You – should find... the truth”

In the quest for love, hope, and fame
The reality of which I play is just a game


The beach. The moon.
The sky. The stars.
The truth, of which I am so eager to live for
It is not even beyond me – it is just too far

What I ask for
Is more than the truth, it is a heart
The heart of a woman
Who will love at first spark

What, how, when, or why
This is the truth that stands in face of all the lies

Injured inside
Hurt below
Life just keeps on playing with you
Just like a casino ball

In the end of all this
No accomplishment is made
Just look
At the price you have paid
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“Princess
Princess
Of my dreams

I have failed you
I have fallen
I have been deceived

Forgive me
For I am not worthy of your heart
Nor of the truth
That lies within our hearts

The enemy is upon me
The barracks are in the rear
There is not much hope for us – me
My death approaches me – it is near

I ask that you
May carry on with your life
And not sulk
On the whens and whys

My heart is yours
For the taking
I love you more
Even after they my soul, take me

Live and let die
Only the honor will vanish into the clouds up into the skies

But in my heart
I will always have this dream
A dream
Of having to spend eternity with thee

I love you
For you are not a flower
I love you
For you are not a cloud
I love you
For you are not the rain
I love you
For you are forever to me…”

Simple And Free

Why can't everything be simple and free?
Isn't that how life's meant to be?

You're one step away from the edge
Life is but a moment - but have you thought of the end?

The road is so clear
But no is there to take your hand
Is there really no one in this world
Who will help you understand?

Turn in your life's secrets
Turn in your fear
Turn in your heart
And you'll be stabbed with a spear

Contemplation of the mind
Into life
Silly of me to think
That life is a simple ride

Something

Something clutches at my heart
Something is holding on so hard

I try to breath
I try to stay afloat
The water just keeps pulling me in

I hold out my hand, I try to reach
Someone to put out their hand, to help me speak
I can't swim, the current's pulling me in

A storm is brewing
Life is a long story, not short

Time in
Time out
Time for me?
I will never know, will I now?

Across the shore
I breathe to stay alive
I spit out
The sands of time

I look up
I see the sun shine
Is it really
For me, a new time?

M O C K E R Y

This island of mockery
Laughs at me
Smiling from face to face
Telling me that life is such a joke if it's not to be taken seriously

Life down the gutter
Hang yourself by a rope
Turn your soul in while you're at it
Simple equations but where would you fit?

Gunshot wound
Pedestrian over run
Baby's dead
A second lightening at the same place, is second to none

I'm tired of hearing pledges
I'm tired of hearing your sorries
The thing with this life
Is the mockery

Mockery stands out
Like a giant with two large hands trying to stop you from getting to three doors
Two of them are blocked and the third has a lion behind it that roars

Life's mockery is such a crying shame
People think it's such a game
Hearts are killed
Souls vanquished
And nothing left but pure pain

If I smile now my face would crack because of my acid tears
Love is nothing but a word to the fools who don't cherish their years
And in time, I could end up like some of them
What's more frightening is that it is more likely to happen
By that time; what would I do then?

This island of mockery
Laughs at me
Smiling from face to face
Telling me that life is such a joke if it's not to be taken seriously

There Is Hope, Yet, For Us All

Devastation is the word that's popular these days
Simple folk curse and feelings are fake

Hearts are burnt in the chest
From treacheries in relationships which are broken and can never be mended or put to rest

Guns are fired
Souls are killed
Bazookas aimed
Wars waged

All for the satisfaction of man
Why is it that we can't understand
That life is a much bigger meaning to comprehend?
That our children are dying from our simple mistakes?
That we can never have what we always want everyday?

A hand on my shoulder
A tear in my eye
The cold fear I feel
Deep within my heart

Will I see the sunset tomorrow?
I don't know
Will I enjoy the next winter?
I don't know
Will I ever grow old?
I don't know
I can only wish that I would use my mind to become wiser
There is yet hope for us all

I Wish I Could See You Smile

Standing on an edge

The wind whistles in your ears
You see the people as if they're ants
If they can't feel
Why should they try to understand?

Another step to eternity
Another lively moment to live by
The minutes go by into hours and you think: why?

Desperation: think of a happy moment
A light at the end of the tunnel
Not when you jump off it

And a hand on my shoulder to hear me cry
To wipe the tears from my eyes
To send love flowing through my veins to recreate my life

This all magically disappears
Love will never create fear
If that's the challenge - I'll be right here

Turn the hands of time
Thoughts roam and rhyme

I wish I could see you smile