August 20, 2004

You Could Be Here

You could be here
Right in front of me
Or walking down that lonely street

Should I be missing you
Or anticipating your arrival
I don't know where to begin, really

You could have been the girl driving behind me
Or another beautiful one smiling and flirting at me
Really I wouldn't know, but I am in desperate need of thee
Would I be a clown? Or really serious? I really wouldn't know, but for you, I would be anything

If I couldn't laugh, I would cry. If I couldn't live, I would die
If for you, I could stand the test of time
To be more patient towards you To love you
To understand you To respect you
And not to underestimate you

Thinking of you, all the time
This is how I think of you - line after line...

Wonderous World

I wonder what you’re wearing today
I wonder what flower you look like today
I wonder how your pearly eyes twinkle and sway
I wonder how you’ve styled your hair today
I wonder whom you’ve met, and what, to them, you say
I wonder if it is, ever, about us, you think, anytime, any day
I wonder if you ever think about getting together, for tea, or breakfast, one day
I wonder if you’ll love me, when we meet, all along the way
I wonder if I’ll ever find you, ever – one time, one day

Where The Moon Is - The Sun Is Always There

There is no path set for you and for me.
It seems so sad, but what can we do? This is the way it will always be.

I fear the future, I am scared.
That I will not find you – a thought of which I cannot dare.
For where the moon is, the sun is always there.

A simple tear – everyday.
Fate? Let it be, come what may.
Sunrays in my eyes, the beauty that will come one to me and say:
Here I am; the truth; you have given, and now you take.

Trees are trees.
Dreams are dreams.
Clouds are clouds.
Seas are seas.

But are you just a fantasy...?

When You See Me

When you see me
Don't make a modest smile
Don't wink
Don't tease me
Because I don't want to be hypnotized by your eyes
Inspelled by the beauty in your face
And the remarkleableness and complexity in which God has created your grace

When you see me
Don't take pity on me
The hunted cavalier
'Drive by, do, or dare'
Someone as beautiful as you, definitely has someone in mind
Or maybe somebody is already in line
Love lasts for all your years - would you, or someone such as you - be there in time?
I'd rather not live another lie

When you see me
Just pass by
Make it look as though you never even noticed me
'I'd rather eat a day's old pair of socks and die!'
Walk on by
Wonderous you
Whom you make me black and blue
Whom I never cease to exist in front of you
Brown eyes, true love never dies

For this is the way that it is meant to be

Wax Fruit

Love don't hate me
Don't make me cry out in the dark my pleads
I'd rather have myself dying
Than crying for your needs

Love don't clutch at my soul
As you are right now
My has no goal
Because I have convinced myself that it is you I should be surround

What good is the table?
If the food is all wax?
What good is life?
Without you in it?
What good is your heart?

If there's no one to understand?

They Told Me To Shut Up

They told me to shut up
They told me not to say a word
They told me it would be over
It would be over very soon

The darkness in this hall
The room they put me in
The window and the bars
The paleness on my skin

Tears down my cheek
I closed my eyes
I wondered if this was all a dream
I wish I could wake up from this fright

A hand on my arm woke me up
I stared into the darkness and two eyes
Both were sad
Both were gonna cry out like a child

My mother held me close
Told me it was gonna be alright
Told me that there should be nothing I should be afraid of

That she would be there for all my time

The Starbucks Moment

Vivid moments of pleasure
Taste the delicacies and feel the delight
Starbucks is the only place where you can
Taste the true blend of coffee; morning, noon, or night

Come in, sit down, have a chat
Taste our Frappuchino, Coffee Latte’s, or tea
Enjoy our friendly mellow atmosphere and staff
Or just listen to our selection of jazz and R’N’ B

One way or another, you’ll find out that Starbucks is different

Live your life easily and come in and enjoy the ‘Starbucks moment’


Rythem of The Night

Rythem of the night
Be silent, be still
I have long favored the winter air
The breeze it is with filled
Life is complicated
My mind is obstructed
By the many problems with which it is surrounded
Lifeline of time
Beauty of the night
The feeling of not being able to make it
I breathe you in
I live within you
Rythem of the night
Be still, be true

Smile

Smile into my eyes
Smile away the blues
Smile away the sighs
The way I remember you

Smile into my heart
The way it used to be
Smile again into my life
Don't let me drown in these tears

You are so deeply missed in my heart
In my mind, I hold your spark
'Tis to this day, that I possess your love

A never-ending tale, of two lovers, in a park

Life Is A Flower

When you are weary
When you think the end is near
Life grows on
Life gives plenty to change

Riding down the tunnel
A black window, blue window too
You would see my marks
And probably hers, too

Dive into the clouds
Slip through like air
Its no wonder
You're still here

Petal by petal
Piece by piece
Think of life as a flower

Nourish it, won't you please?

Dear God

DEAR GOD,

I ASK THAT YOU GUIDE MY SOUL
OUT OF THIS WHOLE

I ASK THAT YOU FORGIVE ME
HELP ME REDEEM MY MISTAKES
GUIDE ME TOWARDS THE LIGHT
SO I CAN FEEL YOUR HEAVENLY GRACE

DEAR GOD

I ASK THAT YOU FORGIVE MY PAST MISTAKES
I ASK THAT YOU HELP ME STAND UP TO WHAT I SHOULD FACE

I ASK THAT YOU HELP ME GET BACK MY HEART AND SOUL
THE VERY THINGS THAT I’VE LOST BECAUSE I TOOK THE WRONG ROAD

DEAR GOD

I ASK THAT YOU OPEN YOUR DOORS TO ME
AND THAT YOU HELP ME SHATTER MY PROBLEMS TO SMITHEREENS

DEAR GOD

I KNOW I COULD WRITE A MILLION WORDS TO YOU
AND EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM WOULD BE TRUE

MY HEART IS SHATTERED INTO A MILLION PIECES
BECAUSE OF MY SINS
I DON’T KNOW WHETHER I WILL GO TO HELL
OR TO HEAVEN

EMPIRE UPON EMPIRE
WORLD UPON WORLD
I KNOW IT IS UP TO YOU

DOWN FROM HEAVEN
UPWARDS FROM HELL
I ASK THAT YOU HELP ME ON THIS EARTH, TO HELP ME BECOME TRUE TO MYSELF, TRUE TO YOU

DEAR GOD

I KNOW THIS IS JUST A WRITTEN PRAYER
AND I DON’T KNOW WHETHER IT WOULD COUNT OR NOT IN YOUR BOOK
BUT I HOPE YOU WILL ANSWER THIS PRAYER
FOR I KNOW YOU ARE MERCIFUL, LOVING TO YOUR SUBJECTS – ALWAYS WANTING FOR THEM WHAT IS GOOD

AMEN

Call Me Up And Make Me Smile

Call me up to say hi.
Call me up to ask me how I am and why.
Call me up just to say that you miss me and not need me.
But don’t call me up to say ‘Bye’.

If I can’t listen to your sweet voice then at least let me see your eyes.
Where passion lives without a lie.
Where the moon and the sun lie.
And where beauty is never denied.

There is no vision without you by my side.
Life, without you, is just a lie.

To know your beauty, I want to understand your smile.
Where dimples come up, and make your eyes twinkle in the light.
Call me up – please, and make me smile

August 19, 2004

Angelica

She wore a blue ribbon on her hair
It would fluff around when she would dance through the air

She danced like a baby
Being happy and all
She was full of it
God! I loved her smile. I loved her all.

Written with the passion of love
And inspired by your beauty
This the truth
This is a true love story

She fell from Heaven because she was meant for me
I felt inspelled by everything on her; from eye to knee
You would have too, believe you and me
Angelica was her name, and angelic in her nature, she was, truly

Now she's gone
Don't know where
This is my story
Of my life's only care

Angelica, if you read this - I love you so

This is all I ever wanted you to know

August 18, 2004

You Have Left Me

You have left me
To this cruel world
To live alone
Like a caveman hiding from a hunter in the cold

You have put my love
On trial
The way you shut me out
The truth that you deny

Two years
Was nothing to you
The things we have done and seen
Now because of you, I am truly blue

Too blue
To see the world
In an optimistic eye

Too blue
To taste the true taste
Of life

Why have you thrown away my heart?
The lies that you told me I hold on to and cry at every night

Sometimes I wish
That you had killed me
Instead of having leaving me like this

Why you had to go
And do what you did
It’s a curse, not bliss

I should be dead
Not alive
How I dreamed of being in your arms
Oh so many times

Why?
Why?
Why?

Why are you so wicked?
Why all the lies?
Why tearing up my heart?

Now I am alone
Now I die slowly
Now the world can collapse on me
And I wouldn’t care

This birthday will really be different
Now that you are gone
Maybe I can commit suicide with a free mind
Because I have lost my soul

Wonder

My mind is wondering about you
Would you make me a happy man, or more blue?

I don’t why
I am taking it this way
I haven’t talked to you, or heard from you
Or even seen your face

Maybe I am
Blowing it out of proportion
But if I am
Then why all this sudden happiness and loving notion?

I have only seen your picture
And already I am obsessed
Perhaps I am acting childlike
Perhaps it is a test

A test to see
If I am worthy of such a thing or not
To try to believe
That life can make you make happy and not

True to myself
I try to be
Wonderous questions
Always seem to swim in my sea

If I am not what you want
Take it easy on me
For I have been slaughtered a thousand times
By women, who have kept me on my toes and turned out to be thieves

I do hope
I do wish
I don’t know
Could someone send out a sign, please?

All I want
Is someone to love
Someone to care for me
Who will not betray my trust

Will that day ever come?
I am not sure
It’s like the weather that we always have on the outside
You never can predict what’s going to happen in the future

White flower
Silver petals
Spark in my heart
Dying of this riddle

Torn Souls

Ghost at my path
Things I may never come to comprehend

The beggar at the streets
The children’s tears
How much more will we be silent?

Defenders of the faith
We are ones who know of the pain
Dare you, to mute yourself, against the children’s crying?

These pictures
We see
The motions
We seek

I was born free
I will live free
I will die a free soul

To those who think they are weak
To anyone who thinks they are not of need
How do you face this call?

The call of the innocent
Who howl out of pain
Who’s skin, soul, lifetime’s memories
Have been torn away

We sit in our homes
Silent tears
When will we ever overcome
These silly, stupid, fears?

I see myself
Among fighters
Thrashing away
At those who attempt to steal my lifetime’s possessions

Rebel soul
Nothing less, nothing more

The secret of life
Is to live each day at a time

Plan ahead
You may
But don’t be surprised
If one day, your plans are changed

The heart
Can only belong to one
Take your time
To find that ‘one’

Don’t cry at my words
Do something for our world

It’s never too lateTo stop the pain

There Is No Reason To Smile

There is no reason to smile
Anymore
There is no life
No spring in my bottom
No galore

Life is life
As atrocious as it may be
The things I used to love and like
Have all gone. Now, it's just me

I might as well
Just hang off my head
What good is life
When you live as if you are dead?

Negligence to soul
To me
To my life
The things I need

You say
It is just a phase
I say
It is a lot of pain

Give me morphine, anytime
I don't wanna live this kind of life


The Truth

Loneliness grasps at my heart
Digging deeper into my emotions making me cry out in the dark

Freedom is the light to where your heart breathes
The feeling, the passion, a lifting – an 'ease'

Love is a tale to be told
Forgetting the heartbreaks and mixing in with the mould

Hold out your heart
At bay
Keep wishing
Come what may

Lovers gaze at one another
Friends love each other

But I am merely a person who has been in line for years

Waiting for the other true half of me

Taking My Life

Taking my life
Into my own two hands
With this knife
I think of why is it I stand

Sitting here
Thinking of you
Then thinking of what I am writing
Through and through

Simple words
You say to me
Make me stop
Make me think
Make me stare

I stopped thinking about her
From time to time
Because of what you said to me

I printed out your email
Not because of your poetic lines
But because I believed in thee

I even have two copies
One at home
One in my car…

But I stopped thinking about anything good
Permanently
Girls, I see
Bitches - maybe, too
But no one as sweet
As sweet as you

I try to keep myself on track
I try to make myself understand
That it is I who is in gain

I try to look onward and see the sun shine
Where the glow keeps glowing, never hides
But all I ever feel is rain - cold bitter rain

Not the type
That I love
Not the type with the blowing wind
But the type that just keeps pouring down on you
Until eventually, there is no more

It is that day – the one that has no more
That I am looking for

One day
The sun will shine my way
And I will need MIB sunglasses to get over them
Because they’ll be shining for me

Telling me
This is your day
You are the ghost
You are Ghosty

You will live on
You will understand
This is life
You have Hods to help you at hand

This is a phase
For if I fail
Then I am no better than she is
The pain
That I am feeling is cold, can’t explain it because it’s bitter

Sunshine
Come my way
Let your sunrays
Shine on me

Lead me
To the one who will truly love me for me
Lead me
To my happiness and to accomplishing my dreams
Lead me
To the white rose that truly exists on this Earth
Help me
Keep my friends - whether they like it or not

White roses
Red roses
Yellow, too

This is how much
I am missing
The one who is making me all sad and blue

I love you
Wherever you are
Whoever you are

And yes
To answer your question
A woman is all my life, love, and heart

For without her
I cannot live
Without her
I cannot exist

Words?
Maybe, true

But to me
I am willing to make it my reality
Even if it means that, I would die for it

Should They?

Should the hours not gain from your eyes?
The sense I felt when I was by your side?
The feeling in my heart when you were nearby?

Should I call out your name and ask for you?
Should I come out in the rain and drench just for you?
Should I retain myself in shame from just thinking over you?

Tell me what I should do
Because I am so in love with you